Erikson's stages of psychosocial development - Wkp:

Infancy: Trust vs. Mistrust (0 to 12-18 months)

Virtue: Hope

The first stage which corresponds to Freud's oral stage centers around the infant's basic needs being met by the parents. The infant depends on the parents, especially the mother, for food, sustenance, comfort. The child's relative understanding of world & society come from the parents & their interaction with the child. If the parents expose the child to warmth & dependable affection, the infant's view of the world will be one of trust. Mistrust will result if the parents fail to provide a secure environment & to meet the child's basic needs.

how do you fix mistrust (hope less ness)?

'daughter of a minor'

-Who is that on piano and singing with Nanci?
-James Hooker.
-Ever time I watch I get choked up. Nanci and James are amazing. Watch Earle and Lovett bow there heads in awe.

 / 'daughter of a minor' = ___ down down down up at end here 4:30 v pretty: 'the name she gave - will always be - Caroline - daughter--daughter [up] - of a minor' = ___ up up up down 'And her ways were free and it seems to me sunshine still walks beside her.'



/do not know when typed this.  was draft in mdlww.  but if one clicks on a (never-published, wh wld hv given it a time-stamp) draft, which I did today 8/25/14 (some five yrs later), then it moves up to current date & time. 
the youtube video was blank.  not clear that's bcs it is gone.  seems the html did not actually have the url.  just the frame that looks like a video.  
I saw this scanning list of posts, seems it was ~2009.  so I will back date to ~ 8/25/14 for now I guess.  if care, can check to see if interrupts a flow of other posts then. 
also cld check:
might actually have it here on dlww?  in fact cld be I meant to post it here, in the little Blog This box just had mdlww checked.  or maybe I meant to post to Songs of Maro's Father.  so it might be there.
and seems probable wld be pgmrkd on dlcs.
I recall being at SemCoop listening to this.
and really liking that rg was willing to talk to me about the contrasting melody (only about 5 notes ~ a bar?)  of the two iterations of 'daughter of a minor'

from my middle school yearbooks:


I don't really know you but you are a good friend, so far.

You are a good great friend.

To my good friend Maro, hope to see you next year but you never know. See you next year.



like in Say Anything: "All mine say things like, 'Lloyd, see you around, maybe.'

Humanities class in Popular

[[This is Google's cache of http://callmecash.tumblr.com/post/131516376/humanities-class-in-popular. It is a snapshot of the page as it appeared on Jun 28, 2009 05:11:07 GMT. The current page could have changed in the meantime. yes yes it has. changed url. [Hey, this is callmecash. I changed my URL. If you got here expecting to find a post or whatever, just change the "callmecash" part of the link with my new username.] tricky ~ did not easily figure wh to replace 'call me cash' with. guess that was her intention. plus if try to right click: "The page at http://74.125.95.132 says: No right-click allowed. Reblog the right way." what's the right way? whtvr. anyway thank you for text of script for this scene:

Sandra Oh great delivery.

Humanities Teacher: Ok, people, listen up. The first order of the day here in Humanities class is: take out a piece of paper. Now I want you to do exactly what I say. With no deviations. Take out that sheet of white. Fold it. Keep on folding it until you have sixteen perfect, pristine squares. I assume everyone knows what a square looks like. Now cut them out! Don't stare at me like a bunch of retardos and make some squares! Do it! Have you counted up sixteen? You should know how to make squares by now, thank you. Now then, put your squares to the edge of your desk facing the aisle. I mean, perfect! I wanna get some paper cuts when I pick up your stacks! Center, people, center!
*gathers paper squares to trash bin* Thank you, thank you.
Now then, will somebody mind explaining to me why you let me waste your time without calling me on it? And while you're at it, will someone please explain to me how you can let me call you retardos? That's prejudice! I know, I know. I know I'm intimidating because I dress fantastically, but you have to listen to that little voice inside your head that says, "Hey, teacher-lady up there is acting a little whacked. Is she on crack?"
*gestures to the drawings of little fish on her dress* What is this fish doing? What is this little fish doing?
Student: Swimming?
Humanities Teacher: That is right! That is right, he is swimming off to become an individual! Swimming off to become an individual!

Popular episode 1.3 Under Siege (part 1 of 5) >>> ~ 6:00 min mark:



this show is fun. yay a new to me fun teen show, two seasons, 43 episodes.

and huh turns out the homecoming crowning scene in 1.7 is familiar, how did I happen to see that? when it aired it was 1999. at 9619 turned on tv & passed by the WB? I remember this bit:
Nicole Julian: Our next nominee *lowers voice* a size 10 *resumes volume* Mary Cherry!
(Cherry Cherry in the stands: She does look big as a house, don't she?)
Nicole Julian: And now, my personal best friend and a perfect size 2 Brooke McQueen!

POPULAR - Episode 1.07 (Part 4/5) >>>> ~ 5:29 min mark


and the bit after that with Cherry Cherry in the limo giving her own self-purchased consolation crown to her daughter is also great, this time the delivery by Delta Burke:
POPULAR - Episode 1.07 (Part 5/5) >>>> ~ 3:10 min mark
Mary Cherry: Sorry I didn't win Homecoming Queen to make you proud, Mama.
Cherry Cherry: Well those are the breaks Sugar Booger they always give it to a pretty girl. [ - ] You know Mary Cherry I lost my first pageant too.
Mary Cherry: Mama, how can that be?
Cherry Cherry: The judges were nuts is the only way I can explain it. Anyway, guess what I did when I lost that crown?
Mary Cherry: Shot 'em, mama?
Cherry Cherry: I went out & I bought myself this. I said to myself, Cherry Cherry, practice holding your head up high, and not tripping girl, 'cause that's the attitude you need to win at life.
Mary Cherry: Mama! You brought your crown here just for me?
Cherry Cherry: Yeah. I'd figured you be a loser.


TWoP - All TV Shows & TV Series [P]: Popular - Permanent Hiatus
Popular was a Trojan horse for Television Without Pity, so to speak. We added the show thinking that this feeble-looking high-school drama about Sam, a brainy brown-haired teenage girl, becoming the stepsister of Brooke, the blonde homecoming queen and Sam's symbolic nemesis, would provide a plethora of snark material. We were right but there were also unexpected moments of camp brilliance that forced us to respect it. The characters of Mary Cherry (a prophecy of Lizzie Grubman in the guise of a ruthlessly ambitious Texan oil-money cheerleader) and Nicole Julian (the second most popular girl in school who tried harder, much harder) made this the gayest hour on television. Unfortunately, network interference made the series virtually unwatchable through its second season and, despite some brilliant moments toward the very end, it was cancelled after a confusing cliffhanger ending.

Behind the Mask: The Rise of Leslie Vernon - teaser



"You chose journalism." (coaching, nodding)


Behind the Mask: The Rise of Leslie Vernon (2006) .... Leslie Vernon
-A TV crew follows Leslie Vernon around, a guy who has the ambition to become the next slasher legend..The sort of backstage look we get of a horror icon lovingly planning his big night is nothing short of hilarious. Leslie Vernon turns out to be a sweet guy who just loves what he's doing. He's friends with an older, more experienced slasher, who's also very warm and talkative. .. the movie makes a turn in the final third. yes it's right at the hour mark, with half hour left, in wh nothing much of int. For the big showdown we leave the movie-within-a-movie scenario created by the documentary set-up and are taken right into the movie's reality, and "Behind The Mask" turns into a real slasher film. Although this last part isn't half-bad, it's not quite as enjoyable as what preceded it. The twist is a bit predictable and the movie lacks real gore and suspense at the end in order to work as a slasher flick. Still, regarding the fact that this movie strictly concentrates on fun y in the first two thirds and only begins to throw in full on horror bits in the end, the showdown works quite well. Nathan Baesel, who makes his movie debut here, plays the nice guy and the psychopath without overacting and hands in a great, great performance.

y he's very good. Nathan Baesel

hmm, he's also in:
"Invasion" .... Deputy Lewis Sirk (15 episodes, 2005-2006) In the aftermath of a hurricane, a Florida Park Ranger and his family deal with strange occurrences, including luminescent creatures in the water and people that somehow seem to have changed after surviving the night of the disaster out in the open.
-one of the best new sci-fi shows that i have seen! the plot moves a little bit slowly in the first few episodes but then gets a boost that keeps you on the edge

1/28/10 Invasion also has James Frain, who I like a lot ~ esp in movie "Where the Heart is" w Natalie Portman was Novalee & he was her librarian friend Forney Hill. recently seen in rewatch of The Closer, epsd 2.8 'Critical Missing' The discovery of the bodies of a Japanese woman and her daughter from an apparent murder/suicide, put the team on the trail of a possible multiple murderer.
and Invasion has Kari Matchett, who I only know from season 6 of 24 where she was Lisa Miller, assistant having an affair with vice president. but she's distinctive looking, so when see a pic of her I do think, I know her from smwh.

Sugar magnolia, blossom's blooming, head's all empty and I don't care,
Saw my baby down by the river, knew she'd have to come up soon for air.



Down by the ri-ver! I shot my ba-by!


Fell in love with a girl fell in love once and almost completely
...she says "come and kiss me by the riverside, Bobby says it's fine he don't consider it cheating."


When I went down in the river to pray Studyin about that good old way And who shall wear the robe & crown, good Lord, show me the way. Oh, mothers, let's go down, c'mon down, don't you wanna go down? down in the river to pray.


Burn Down The Mission lyrics by Elton John. ... Everybody now bring your family down to the riverside.


I'm gonna lay down my sword and shield |: Down by the riverside :|
I'm gonna lay down my sword and shield Down by the riverside Gonna study war no more.
Down By The Riverside: Street singing at the Los Angeles Anti-war March 1/27/07



Sweet blossom come on, under the willow, we can have high times if youll abide
We can discover the wonders of nature, rolling in the rushes down by the riverside.

... rings on her fingers & bells on her toes ...

nursery rhyme "Banbury Cross":

"Ride a cock--horse to Banbury Cross,
To see an old lady upon a white horse.
Rings on her fingers, and bells on her toes,
She shall have music wherever she goes."

[Source:] The Real Mother Goose, Rand McNally, 1916.

the annotated "Scarlet Begonias"

As I was walking round Grosvenor Square Not a chill to the winter but a nip to the air
From the other direction she was calling my eye
It could be an illusion, but I might as well try - Might as well try

She had rings on her fingers and bells on her shoes And I knew without asking she was into the blues
She wore scarlet begonias, tucked into her curls
I knew right away she was not like other girls - Other girls

In the thick of the evening when the dealing got rough She was too pat to open and too cool to bluff
As I picked up my matches and was closing the door
I had one of those flashes I'd been there before - Been there before

Well I ain't often right but I've never been wrong It seldom turns out the way it does in the song
Once in a while you get shown the light In the strangest of places if you look at it right

Well there ain't nothing wrong with the way she moves Scarlet begonias or a touch of the blues
And there's nothing wrong with the look that's in her eyes
I had to learn the hard way to let her pass by - Let her pass by

The wind in the willows playing Tea for Two The sky was yellow and the sun was blue
Strangers stopping strangers just to shake their hand
Everybody is playing in the heart of gold band - Heart of gold band


so was thinking of that but had to go through the ~ more popularly known, right? ~ and I think I like it less but it is easier to sing, it's pretty to sing ~

annotated "Sugar Magnolia / Sunshine Daydream"

Sugar magnolia, blossom's blooming, head's all empty and I don't care,
Saw my baby down by the river, knew she'd have to come up soon for air.

Sweet blossom come on, under the willow, we can have high times if youll abide
We can discover the wonders of nature, rolling in the rushes down by the riverside.

She's got everything delightful, she's got everything I need,
Takes the wheel when I'm seeing double, pays my ticket when I speed.

She comes skimmin through rays of violet, she can wade in a drop of dew,
She don't come and I don't follow, waits backstage while I sing to you.

["I got a girl in the head of the hollow, She won't come and I won't call 'er." --folk song,'Sourwood Mountain']

Well, she can dance a cajun rhythm, jump like a willys in four wheel drive.
She's a summer love for spring, fall and winter. she can make happy any man alive.

Sugar magnolia, ringing that bluebell, caught up in sunlight, come on out singing
Ill walk you in the sunshine, come on honey, come along with me.

Shes got everything delightful, shes got everything I need,
A breeze in the pines and the sun and bright moonlight [in the summer night moonlight] , crazy in the sunlight yes indeed.

Sometimes when the cuckoos crying, when the moon is halfway down,
Sometimes when the night is dying, I take me out and I wander around, I wander
round.

Sunshine, daydream, walking in the tall trees, going where the wind goes
Blooming like a red rose, breathing more freely,
Light out singin, Ill walk you in the morning sunshine
Sunshine, daydream. sunshine, daydream. walking in the sunshine.


which girl are you? morning sunshine daydream down by the river? in the thick of the evening, nip in the air, too pat to open & too cool to bluff?
are you present tense: she's got everything I need? or are you past tense: I had to learn the hard way to let her pass by?


-In the snide (bells on her shoes?) Scarlet Begonias, Jerry amiably laments that although the signs of foolishness were evident (knew right away/without asking), he was only a man who should have (but didn't) let her pass by. Must've been the roses....er..ruby begonias.

>describing someone as "too pat to open" is like saying that they were so sure of winning they forgot to show up. "Only some people get what they want." "Those are the ones who show up to get it."
>in Jerryspeak cool is a perjorative
It is?

-Ditto that "it is?". I never inferred that from his use of the word. And just to be picky, this is Hunterspeak! Well, Hunterwrite/Jerrysing ;-). Seems to me that the narrative has moved beyond the "forgot to show up" option by the time we reach the line in question (based on the line that precedes it). Anyway, I don't get a pejorative implication from the line, so much as rueful admiration.

-I bow to popular opinion, perjorative withdrawn.
When thinking about the line "too cool to bluff" I connected it with "thought you was the cool fool" of Sugaree, which is another similarly fractured Hunter/Garcia love song. And the FOTM verse "you're playing cold music on the barroom floor" is aimed at what else but the foolish cool?

-I used to play a lot of poker in the past, and “too pat to open” strikes me as an almost nonsensical contradiction. A pat hand is generally a winning hand, and with a pat hand you pretty much *have to* open in the first round of bidding after the deal.
Same thing with “too cool to bluff”—it makes no sense. You *have to* be cool if you’re going to bluff, and the cooler the better. There’s no such thing as “too cool” when it comes to bluffing.
My own personal take is that he’s describing a woman who won’t play the game. She sends out signals that she’s a player when you first meet her, but when it comes time to play the game, she presents another face—opposition, contrariness, and refusal to play by the rules.

-Her name is April Tucker. I know her. hehee. Her name is April Tucker, and that song is exactly right on. If Hunter has been drinking with April, he probably doesn't really have a clue either .. waking with a headache and a face sore from smiling the next day, in a hotel room in a city the name and location of which he was uncertain. Pretty sure he was also stone-broke.

-Scarlet Begonias has my favorite woman in it of all the women in the Dead oeuvre. She's cool, she's together, she's so confident and not afraid of drawing attention to herself, she wears scarlet begonias in her hair and bells on her shoes.

The children we were have grown into us


How do you know you'll recognize me





I gave America her name

--Robyn Hitchcock appeared in Rachel Getting Married in 2008, singing and playing guitar in the wedding-party band.

looking at my bks of poetry, mainly galleys fr Ahsahta ~ all interesting, several very appealing:

Liz Waldner - saving the appearances. =kepler. + euclid, early book title "a point is that which has no part." + references to gospels & wave physics. ~as if sjc.
p8 self-interrogation: in physics lab, waves. the glint of the creek. 'I succeeded back then in not knowing there were things to ask.'

Brigitte Byrd - Fence Above the Sea. bckcvr: mourning daughter.* ( * All the new thinking is about loss. / In this it resembles all the old thinking )
prose poems. ~in italics, things said, repeated, like me, mine (I'm so sorry. at the window. all the fish in the sea.)
requiem series. 'and then, there was another day.' another day, another day. (townes: going to write a song about birds. bluebird. another bird. another bird, another bird.) 'it is hard to turn away from moving water', repeated quotation of Lyn Hejinian, My Life. ( yes, yes it is hard, to turn away. from anything moving. )

Rusty Morrison - the true keeps calm biding its secret. bckcvr: aftermath father's death.* ( * All the new thinking is about loss. / In this it resembles all the old thinking )
every page at top 'please advise stop' and every line ends stop. stop. please. advise. stop.


Ahsahta Press . Poetry . Open Submissions
Ahsahta Press, a not-for-profit literary publisher, was founded at Boise State University to preserve the best works by early poets of the American West, including many underpublished women poets. Soon after its inception, the press began publishing contemporary poetry by Western poets along with its reprint titles. With the inception of the M.F.A. in Creative Writing at Boise State University, Ahsahta Press has expanded its scope, presenting the work of poets from across the nation whose work is selected through our national competition or by general submission. Asahta Press seeks out and publishes the best new poetry from an eclectic range of aesthetics—poetry that is technically accomplished, distinctive in style, and thematically fresh. In 2001, a generous donor made it possible for Ahsahta to establish the Sawtooth Poetry Prize, an award for a book-length collection of poetry judged by a poet of national repute.


and Saba. Songbook. I love this book! italian. the animals. honest.

p40, p516 the animals! - gli animali. le bestie. tell of life, they reveal its fonde.

at end, essay: What remains for poets to do: It remains for poets to write honest poetry.
'if the principle is not established that one cannot falsify one's vision (turn a mirror into a judge or fearful God), the overall result will be the death of personality.' yesyesyes Hughes TSEliot dancer to god.
'..invalids far from native land whose last hope for cure is the air of home. Thus it remain to return to the origins, with a labor perhaps more of selection and reconstruction than of newest creation; it remains to accomplish what until now has only been rarely and partially achieved: honest poetry.

-

this from a book I will not keep, I have it bcs read this page (corner is folded) and therefore purchased it at Powells?


To catch a hedgehog you need to wear
your hedgehog gloves. His belly is
smooth, vulnerable, covered with gray fur--
hold him there with both hands.

Your mom will sigh, your dad will frown
when you return from the woods--
grass in your hair, all over your brown
worn overcoat, and your finger bleeds.

Now you have a silent friend
who drinks his milk from a puppy pan
and trots at night across the wasteland
of hardwood floors over and again.

To bond with a hedgehog you must become
an owl who has sounds for colors.
The winter apartment is warm and calm.
Lights out, the game starts the trotting, the world is yours.


To Catch a Hedgehog p17 [az] Cossacks and Bandits (Salt Modern Poets) - Katia Kapovich [az]

the poems, the book, not especially appealing to me, so give away. had shelved w ~lit, w my Ahsahta galleys, all of wh more appealing. so give away; just keep by noting this one poem. inside front cover pencil scribbled five dollar price ~ from Powells ~ do not remember purchasing or finding or wanting. page 17 lower corner folded. pencil underlined 'Now you have a silent friend who drinks his milk from a puppy pan and trots at night' and squiggle cross out of penult two lines, then short motion line under 'the game starts' and line~gamma~check 'the world is yours.'

lomog

cute




irish setter? redhead



houses on a street ___



blue with white (shirt; sky clouds). red flowers with white and dry green. skin, hands over eyes, brown hair pulled back. is she making a wish? why is that one flower so big? while not in the foreground ~ *appearing large while not in foreground*