ferrante ..

* > ? //   ferrante "michele" lila alfonso - ggl  // trying find re relation to Lila of michele after marcello    change ~ ? in first book marcello solara proposes   /perused bk rulit elena describes him as really taken w her/  but then did he stop figuring in Lila's life?  while his brother...?  .. ~ 3rd  4th bk  michele hires Lila, praises her ..  and in char lists I see mention th *Michele*  ~'continues to be' obsessed  w Lila  /  has affair w alfonso who is living ~ as like Lila /   When does Michele's obsessn devotion to Lila begin?  < want to read re that  ~  re change in roles of the two Solara brothers in re Lila, etc

Oct1-Nov18.. of int Westing Game bk movie congress withy

...  draw

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https://www.vulture.com/2018/11/jerry-saltz-how-to-be-an-artist.html
How to Begin .. In Studio    
I like this lesson six a lot    I love, had not thought of:  "If you can write, you already know how to draw."  marks of writing  handwriting  is drawing.
Lesson 6: Start With a Pencil
marks ///   Don’t worry about drawing. Just make marks. Tell yourself you’re simply diagramming, playing, experimenting, seeing what looks like what. 
If you can write, you already know how to draw; you already have a form of your own, a style of making letters and numbers and special doodles. These are forms of drawing, too.
While you’re making marks and drawing, pay attention to all the physical feedback you’re getting from your hand, wrist, arm, /int/   ears, your sense of smell and touch. How long can your mark go before you seem to need to lift the pencil and make a different mark? Make those marks shorter or longer. Change the ways you make them at all, wrap your fingers in fabric to change your touch, try your other hand to see what it does. All these things are telling you something. Get very quiet inside yourself and pay attention to everything you’re experiencing. Don’t think good or bad. Think useful, pleasurable, strange. 
   Carry a sketchbook with you at all times.
   Cover a one-by-one-foot piece of paper with marks.  /so, a square.  larger scale than paper.  like a canvas ?  painting   maybe here using just to try a space of material bigger than paper. ~ bolder, maybe.//  But don’t just fill the whole page border to border, edge to edge. (Way too easy.)
Think about what shapes, forms, structures, configurations, details, sweeps, buildups, dispersals, and compositions appeal to you.   // form.  structure. configure.  sweep.  build-up..  disperse.  compose.    compose. configure.   ~ "I have taken oblong and placed upon a square.  ... my triumph."  my great work.  work.  master piece.  mastery. 

material ///    Now do this on another surface, any surface, to know what kind of material appeals to you. Draw on rock, metal, foam-core, coffee cups, labels, the sidewalk, walls, plants, fabric, wood, whatever.
 Just make marks; decorate these surfaces. Don’t worry about doing more. All art is a form of decoration //hmm//.

ideas, what think when there ///  Now ask someone what ideas they get when they look at what you’ve made. They’ve just told you more about what you’ve already done. If the other person sees it in your work, it’s there.
//di piero ~ "not re sophisticated or not  but,  is it intense enough th want live there?"
intense ~ ideas, thought feeling.  exciting.  sth happening. 




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/(briefly talking w L, S re 'most famous" (S d n agree   to me that's !    th M Jackson)

Once in a Lifetime: Michael Jackson, Madonna, Prince | HuffPost  |  producer Jimmy Jam 2016 re Prince:    He out-talented everyone by so much. In sports, it’d be like Michael Jordan. He walks into the gym and he’s the most talented player; that’s how Prince was. He walked in and he was more talented than everybody...He’d come to rehearsal, work with us, go work with his band, then he’d go to his studio all night and record. The next night he’d come to rehearsal with a tape in his hand and he’d say, ‘This is what I did last night!’ and it’d be something like ‘1999.’”

/makes me happy ?     excellence       just thinking of. 
artistry  also  just in how are   smartness   sharp  ~  person  in the room:  
// I like, what is it, th makes one describe as "He walks in and.."   like, all he has to do is walk into the gym, the studio,   like ~ before he does anything, already better than anyone.    ~ wh he did last night is (as if always) sth like 1999.  (and tvz, smlr story? went to his room then next morning here, song was the one about maria turning over  hopelessness.  whoever telling story  guy clark  steve earl  in same tone  masterpiece   just, here's wh I wrote down)  




on phone took screenshot comment  after Prince's death "how do you not mourn when that light goes out?"





Oct18.. of int   Withy    Congress movie "wh is on othr side Truth can I go back to wh came fr  there is no such thing as wh you came fr"
10/31 Tuesday
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The Westing Game
We All Must Play “The Westing Game” | Public Books  |  
A later middle-grade classic, Louis Sachar’s 1998 Holes, opens in what is essentially an homage to Sunset Towers: “There is no lake at Camp Green Lake.”     // ~ ?   ~   Sunset towers  ~ everyone knows sun sets in the west. but sunset towers faces east.   //
Sachar’s book [Holes], however, is both more stridently dark and finally more heroic; the traduced and abused children fight back and win.
Raskin [The Westing Game], true to her moment, is less certain of how, or if, final victory comes.  [char] Turtle Wexler, the angry, whip-smart stock-market-aficionado-in-braids whom most readers finally /hmm only in the end//  identify with, thinks she can outwit the game.
But she also cries out helplessly //(I think ~ like ~  in the garden //, at a pivotal moment: “Why is everybody lying?” // ("Why hast thou forsaken me?"  y lying is forsaking?   not being there   not being with  //
Being smart is not necessarily a refuge.   

 .. Don’t trust Uncle Sam? Your only recourse is to hope Uncle Sam fixes everything.

The novel’s ambiance of unappeased suspicion, however, cuts against the contented conclusion of the game plot.    Raskin wrote herself into what now, 40 years later, I’d call an ideological bind, a dissonance between plot and tone.     In this she was capturing her post-Bicentennial moment even better than she had planned. An inexorable and creepy optimism descends to solve, without resolving, the antagonisms that have simmering under the surface all along.  Don’t trust Uncle Sam? Your only recourse is to hope Uncle Sam fixes everything.

//tone       ////vs////                                                                                                                             plot.   
suspicion                                                                                                                                    contented (satisfying) conclusion  (resolution, of game)      
antagonisms under surface.    /and fr this {truer} point of view:  and “inexorable, creepy - “                                                           - optimism
distrust in [the nation/collective/society]      against actual belief, perception; a reliance on and therefore coerced attitude of        - hope                                        


the difference between the rules that structure a game and the rationale for those rules, a challenge for the intellect that still quietly insists that winning games isn’t all that it seems.


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10/30 Monday

so have black out curtains.  one room w desktop cmptr file cabinet light.  /but I wld dread going in there!  /pretty m as is. 

dionysus water th rises floods evth  

10 30 2018     browsers  bkmrks   (photos on phone!  why edit?  
evth I do so individualized   depr? how high maintenance  
                 (to wh end ?   none  
but if stop    any other way?   d n (engage) distract fr unrealness   unfamiliar  uncanny   terrible  (actual terror)   ~dissonance   incommensurableness   of   
of wh   how I feel [I am}
  and wh I wake to [being]
hannah ~ 
my deep   total    feeling  : shld be someone.     also: is not. 

'nihilism'  but th seems always a pretense  a stance   not wh suffering
why I am so into There is an Is








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Congress movie

The Congress Official Trailer Robin Wright, Jon Hamm HD - YouTube  /az prime watchlist I had removed bcs ~ d n like seeing image robin wright ~cold   and not m int j hamm and p giamatti in cast / but wanted to recall so searched first tht charlize theron then got to r wright
/and huh maybe I d n even get to watching trailer bcs thinking now I do want to watch this:

"What is on the other side?"  "Truth."   * ?  other side  back in supposed actual world?  ~      
// reminds of Tender is the Night  the artist ~ I found sth there, what was it I found?     ~ Nothing.    exploratin edges cnscnss for ppl w thick ankles peasants blood (tough)  // 
"Can I go back to where I came from?"      
"There is no such thing as where you came from."   

The Congress (2013 film) - Wkp |  Abrahama City is an animated zone, where individuals are required to use chemicals to become animated avatars of themselves, entering a mutable illusory state; they can become anything they want to be. ....      While Robin can return to an animated existence("Can I go back to where I came from?"), she cannot return to the one /the life she had been in/ she left behind, including [her son], because that world was not real but created by her consciousness.       /oh well darn so her animated invented fr consciousness world is the "where came fr" of wh there is now no such thing.      I want ~ th to be (considered?  felt as?)   the real.     
I wanted the  supposed ~actual~ world  (filmed not drawn) in which she lived until going into the created animated one to be the "no such thing"



az    -It's weird that human beings will spend as much time as they possibly can inside of stories  TV, movies, religion, gossip, video games, etc. Most people seem to hate reality,
/// no ~  to much of th   ~   It's   that  will spend as /so/ much time   inside of stories  TV, movies, religion, gossip, video games, etc. Most people seem to hate reality //this is reality.  spend time interested.  engaged.  inside gossip  ~  inside conversation.    ~  might better distinguish?    virtual ~  sensory? input   * more or less designed *   (always designed some *   right?  architecture   even just how you ‘set up camp” on desert island   just little square brushed dirt by tree to lean on //    
and they will leave it in any way they possibly can, and as soon as they possibly can.  // no ~ they will *choose* it  choose where want to be //  

 Stanislaw Lem, who wrote the novella that this movie is based on, thought the ultimate // ~ // reality-escape technology // ~ //   would be pharmacological (it was the early 70's!), but we now know that it will be information technology.   //int ~ cool.  Your grandkids will almost certainly binge-watch stories using hyper-real virtual reality, 24/7, 365 days a year.
  This is a movie about that. It is a very good movie, but it really doesn't matter that it's good because it's very, very important and would be well worth watching even if it were bad.
Look at the distribution of reviews  it's 'U'-shaped, which ought to be intriguing to you.
Some people will find this movie confusing and scary and uncomforting. There's a heartbreaking scene, filled with pity, in which Robin returns to reality and walks among people like that, realizing who and what they are for the first time.   No difficult narratives for them. No discomfort, no boredom, no leaving the well-beaten movie track.   //? the unanimated ‘real’ ppl?   are the unaware ones? //
Each living a perfect life, and also no life at all. The scene screams at you that there is nothing more beautiful than awareness..


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kate withy  therapy ‘ ggl    /(just wondering) nothing comes right up fr  any work about therapy

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Heidegger On Being Uncanny By Katherine Withy
www.biserica-betel.com/heidegger_on_being_uncanny_download.pdf

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LCAS Partners and News | lcasforumorg
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Hermenuetics Research Papers - Academia.edu
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THE PHENOMENOLOGY OF MOODS - Georgetown Library repository
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Ain't Them Bodies Saints .. Terrence Malick lens flare and sunset wash 'magic-hour' quiet naturalism sunlight

Ain't Them Bodies Saints - wkp /expiring netflix 10/18/18 (one week fr today thur 10/11 ie ~ Wed last day watch) //    the [film's beauty] is not just in the incredible cinematography ... but in the way the film holds back information, blindsiding you with tiny revelations."  <<  d n read whole plot sum unless d n end up watching   


Ain't Them Bodies Saints -  #critical reception  /ah ha yes the opening scene made me think of Malick ~ espclly one th I cld not get into, actually in a field? ben affleck? french woman y! To The Wonder (was on ntflx I think) // and yes  srch page  14 hits Malick :     Critics drew extensive comparisons to the work of Terrence Malick     looks derivative, with the familiar lens flare and sunset wash. But if it is a homage, this is an intelligent and accomplished one, a conscientious matching-up of style and substance.                        is no Malick homage. far from dwelling on transcendence, as Malick does, Lowery's film has a solid, grounded storyline, rooted in crime thrillers and film noir tradition.        the comparisons to Terrence Malick are obvious and many—and a well-deserved compliment—   the setting of 1970s Texas, the impressionistic wisps of memory, the quiet naturalism of warm sunlight and the dusky magic-hour melancholy—they're all there, all those signatures that are reminiscent of the master filmmaker.       / negative:  upstart David Lowery mimics the mythic methodology of his revered elder, drowning the sparse tale of an on-the-run convict and his lonely baby's mama in lots of dreamy, magic-hour atmosphere.’  / ~ y but I may not mind

The Last Waltz .. The Band .. Levon Helm

* The Last Waltz *  .. The Band ..  Levon Helm

intention   copy other notes fr bookmarks    (in Chrome, under Other Bkmrks)
copy paste only gets me the URLS  not the bkmrk names ie my notes

https://www.rollingstone.com/movies/movie-news/why-the-bands-the-last-waltz-is-the-greatest-concert-movie-of-all-time-104637/

https://www.google.com/search?ei=g5S_W6iPGcn3zgLCsYawCg&q=%22Levon+Helm%3A+An+appreciation%22&oq=%22Levon+Helm%3A+An+appreciation%22&gs_l=psy-ab.3..33i299.10597.10597..11033...0.0..0.164.164.0j1......0....1..gws-wiz.......0i71.1wGrJ7PCvt8

https://www.google.com/search?ei=j5S_W8KSHsTbzgLOmahw&q=+Levon+Helm%3A+Irishtimes.com.++&oq=+Levon+Helm%3A+Irishtimes.com.++&gs_l=psy-ab.3...35194.41698..42495...0.0..0.78.285.5......0....1j2..gws-wiz.......0j0i67j33i299.CZv0vENOBZI

https://www.google.com/search?q=%22The+sun%27s+gonna+shine+through+the+shadows+when+I+go+away.&oq=%22The+sun%27s+gonna+shine+through+the+shadows+when+I+go+away.&aqs=chrome..69i57&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8

https://www.google.com/search?ei=QZW_W5q0Hcq-zwKZ2Y7oBQ&q=when+i+go+away+&oq=when+i+go+away+&gs_l=psy-ab.3..0i67j0l6.5514.5514..6058...0.0..0.64.64.1......0....1..gws-wiz.......0i71.LoThfChDM6g

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Electric_Dirt  

https://pitchfork.com/features/afterword/8817-levon-helm/


https://www.amazon.com/Aint-My-Health-About-Blu-ray/dp/B00E51KKNC

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F03oZFq4yqw


en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Levon_Helm#LegacyLevon Helm - Wkp / Springsteen: his voice and his drumming so incredibly personal * .. one of greatest greatest voices in ctry, rock, ... // Springsteen called Helm "one of the greatest, greatest voices in country, rockabilly and rock 'n' roll ... staggering ... while playing the drums. Both his voice and his drumming were so incredibly personal. He had a feel on the drums that comes out of certain place in the past and you can't replicate it."
George Harrison said that while writing his 1970 song "All Things Must Pass", he imagined Levon Helm singing it.


https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rick_Danko#Legacy
 Rick Danko - Wkp |   * Danko w Levon Helm formed one finest rhythm sxns .. a partnership, subtle intense rhythmic conversatn //in full://
On the Irishtimes.com blogsite, Laurence Mackin wrote that Together with bass player Rick Danko, [Levon] Helm formed one of the finest rhythm sections to ever put a groove to a beat, and a partnership that formed the backbone of The Band.
In Danko, he had the perfect complementary player, one of the finest bassists and one of the gentlest souls.  His music was subtle, his instinct for just the right note unwavering – he could play one beat in four bars, but lord could he make it count.
Their subtle, intense rhythmic conversation brought shape and distinction to the Band's music – it gave it heart and soul.[30]


https://www.amazon.com/Aint-My-Health-About-Blu-ray/dp/B00E51KKNC

https://www.amazon.com/gp/customer-reviews/R3POMLWE6EIOVQ 
-that voice! the voice of the Amer heartland, iconic, craggy, lusty.. and yes one of the v best drummers in the world//   az- Ain't In It For My Health: A Film About Levon Helm -Wonderful!  Levon was the voice of the American heartland, an iconic, craggy, lusty voice.. And, oh yes, he was one the the very best drummers in the world.   /this actually makes me tear up, so does re Helm and Danko as one of finest rhythm sxns ever, partnership, intense musical conversatn (quoted wkp fr irish times) ...  here this whole cust rvw good   

https://www.amazon.com/gp/customer-reviews/R3JLTA42H28AYI
The Band imo certainly the best //!// white  /cool/  band this cntry ever produced //!! wow.//  az- Ain't In It For My Health: A Film About Levon Helm
-Valuable, if not so easy to watch.  It is a sobering unblinking look at illness, dying, perseverance and a man in some ways trying to come to terms with the vagaries of existence.   
At one time the Band was one of the most popular Rock & Roll groups in the country, and imo certainly the best white band this country (or Canada) ever produced.
They must have made untold millions.
[But//] Here we come upon Levon whose medical expenses have driven him to the brink of home foreclosure, and one can't help but wonder how the hell that happened?   Well it apparently is all in the song publishing rights and Robbie Robertson got most of those. Levon is justifiably bitter.
This is not how I'd choose to remember Levon Helm as a sick, suffering albeit game, septuagenarian /y. I tht th.  even nice bit ytube him singing, sad, not so m re the bitterness ok w seeing th maybe,  but just age.  part of wh so great in my clips fr The Last Waltz  is ~ youth ?  so I might want keep that foremost in mind.  maybe see just bit of this.//
As a documentary I'd have to give it high marks.
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noticing appraising cheating

ozark       look fwd to.     netflix…



sneaky pete    already, s2 been there ready for me az      <
patriot  no s2 yet right. still stopped in e1 just liking it.               }  az.         *

/about the lead guy.  y.   in each. 
jason bateman.       
giovanni ribsi. 
lead in patriot  guy who reminds a little of kinnaman  and terry oquinn as his father. 

right now The Amers.  y philip is the best part. 
(but no not about masculinity the way those movies are (assass of jesse jackson by the coward rbt ford.  hist of violence.  the woodsman.)  men being intense.   intensity  masculinity  appraising.


      smtms more liking char  not necess intense    veronica mars  well logan it was his intensity  along w wry.   charlie crews on life.    like giovanni ribsi sneaky pete.  just, smart. 
so:  appraising.
 or, cheating.   smartest guy in the room.  noticing.         /  ~ “you don’t miss much.”  (j to me).    “I’m not real slow.”  peter krause we dont live here anymore. 
// mystery  someone lkg for sth, actively.   in a con.  someone is noticing. actively. 
putting one over.      ..  point of wh is, I mean the appeal to me is    the being smart.   mind at work, mind has mountains.    make me feel there is a person there.    so the intense men are one way of that.  watching.  gaze.    so is just anyone  who is  being  -on it-.  tracking.  watching.    so spies, conmen, criminals.  there has to be a room in wh to be the smartest.   

  


…       lost ~  not s m about jack, though. w that was actually about the story?)      
 fiona on shameless.  as well as lip.   so yes here is about the ensemble.  kevin :) 
comedic  weeds  andy .   .. 



  az *   also a number of shows  to note.  Black Widows. int!  *Finnish*   sound greek ish?  eastern european ?  estonia.    more than scandinavian german




There is something to be told about us for the telling of which we all wait.

the Americans .... cmmnts notes not org

 Renee: The future is cloudy   |

 -sistermagpie: But then what's weird is it seems like this second marriage, the one he had to work through issues to get to, is far colder than the first marriage was. Stan still seems kind of befuddled to find himself talking to her when she appears in his house and even last season the whole thing seemed arranged by Renee--something broke in her place so she had to "move in" for a while (and never left), she appears at the gym and has all the same interests as Stan, etc. 

  -Erin9: I sure would like there to be some explanation on why Renee and S/R have no substance. Especially on a show where it is all about marriage.  //and cmmt re m more re his ex wife substantv real char.    sandra. 

   -Ellaria Sand: two possibilities:
1) They hired Laurie Holden, made her Stan's love interest (OK, that's fine) and gave her nothing of interest to do while creating a faux mystery around the character
 2) Hired Laurie Holden, had her pretend to fall in love with Stan while doing secret spy work that will have an impact on the end game.
Either one of these sound like terrible choices by the writers yet this is basically what we are choosing between






S06.E08: The Summit - The Americans 

 -jjj:   Renee, giggling: "Oh, do I need to memorize all the state capitols for my interview?!"
Me: "Nice try, Renee, we know you learned those in SpySchool."       


 -Anyone have a clue as to why Phillip is getting a new suit...NOW? 
 -For his funeral?


-At this point, Renee is going to be confirmed as an undercover operative for one three letter organization or another, or this is the most epic troll job by showrunners that has ever happened.



The Americans Have A New Awareness Of The Fragility Of Human Life | Previously.TV  |  
Renee checks the mail .. Stan's excited for her, and when she nervously asks what she'll be asked about, he assures her that it's the same kind of thing that would come up wherever she interviewed, plus whether she's "a loyal American, and if [she] can keep a secret."  She sure as hell seems to have nailed the latter. What! Is! Her! DEAL?!    
   ..  so then is Elizabeth's refusal to follow this order what will activate Renee to do it instead? FINALLY?????               
  ..... 
//Curtis at Roy Rogers, wh remembers re wmn w Gregory:   "Had incredible hair, like those Vidal Sassoon ads?" Before calling in an APB on Rayna Jaymes // ;)  Connie Britton

web z to phylogeny (ontology H Bruce Hyde re H communication also re Erhardt est to Douglas Engelbart hypertext*) Korzybski 'map is not the territory' laura riding

via  via  via    

  ....    tv  phrase  web z   wordref   ~ memes  
    to phylogeny 
ontology    H      Bruce Hyde
re H communication  listening authentically  < look at.       also re Erhardt est   to Douglas Engelbart  hypertext*)    
Korzybski 'map is not the territory'   laura riding 



can I write in  live in  foreign language  not having to know am this person  am unfamiliar anyway?
re The Americans  cmmt   they are giving Stan the collar   giving the collar   wordreference    french comments
https://forum.wordreference.com/threads/to-give-someone-the-collar.592664/
to give someone the collar | WordReference Forums // via The Amers prvslytv forum The Soviet Union is No More p10  -umbelina:  My big take away is that they are giving this collar to Stan.   //  pleasant french here  -'To collar someone' means to arrest, ou plutôt  [or rather]      -Alors comme on dirait bien que tout le monde s'accorde sur collar being related to arrest  [Then alors  as comme  one says on dirait  well bien  (one says well / it is well said) that  que  everyone  tout le monde  agrees s'accorde  sur  over  (about) 'collar' being related to arrest, I'll go for that.       // but I did think here she's got it -Kelly B:  Did one officer give another (perhaps a less senior one) the opportunity to make the arrest, even though he could have done it himself? That's how it sounds to me. He let him make the arrest, and therefore get the credit for it.  /yup yup that is how it sounds.  intuitionist.   and this cmmt goes unreplied to  until  I am glad to see  -Pascale:  erratum! Kelly B was right, just reread the whole context and one policeman is telling another that it was good of him to give the credit for the arrest to a third policeman.  (It's subtitle translation for The Wire by the way, great stuff)

... aside  also earlier via cmmt re The Americans?  (on prvslytv forums)  mention  of When they ask you where you want to go  and they are going to ask you ...   =  to McNulty on the Wire.  Lester telling him.  (Lester had said just give me sth outdoors, beat cop, anyth not behind a desk.  got pawn shop 20 yrs.  too late McNulty had said anywh but docks.)   when I looked up this line,   got The Wire twop recap at brilliantbutcancelled.com  so now know all recaps in full there (on twop site, only loads p1 of each recap)


and now fr The Americans cmmt "acting all brand new"  (why Eliz acting all brand new w Claudia ~ as if not wary of her violent to her way back).  looked up that phrase.  I like it, not so much for acting fancy, like thinking of self as better.   but for acting as if not already talked about this, not already have a way for this   ~sort of wh saying to gabi at school cafeteria yesterday, lunch attendants telling kids quiet wait for teachers etc  to me seems like doing this new, not every day.  acting brand new about it.      meme ex: when you told your mom your plans yesterday but today she acting all brand new.     more seriously could express kind of betrayal  person acting like not have a way with you  like as I used to say  shared room  acting like outside that room, left it, acting like do not know it.
///   oh!  "Who's Johnny?" she said  and smiled in her special way.
that's the brand new.  the shared room was "Johnny," she said. "You know I love you."    ///

.... and -next day - heard th song! in chuy's after going to recital ballet lilo.  .... 


... memes  browsed  bcs as scroll down page fr acting brand new  went to  plans  missed you
Ok fiiiiine I missed you @mybestiesays   cat hug
https://me.me/i/when-you-havent-seen-your-best-friend-for-awhile-ok-18907762
cat w dog// When you haven't seen your best friend for a while// Ok fiiiiiine I missed you @mybestiesays  /aw
 I wonder wh really, do they get along? lks like hug but is really an attack right? more or less playful..  and ineffective!  he just turns his head a bit, lowers her  then lick grooms her!  (dominant)

reddit r/adviceanimals  and then r/verticals  just means style of meme pic
browsing verticals  saw ones interview with unicorns
looking up bcs what to do w unicorns? (origin?
got to an interview w grr martin
https://www.reddit.com/r/asoiaf/comments/31xgjt/spoilers_twow_i_found_an_old_interview_about_pov/
Here is the link: http://bibliobs.nouvelobs.com/romans/20140808.OBS5924/george-r-r-martin-j-aime-tuer-mes-personnages.html?xtor=RSS-17 It's in French of course you'll have to trust me or use a translator.
 Il y a des licornes dans mon prochain livre --> There are unicorns in my next book
 ...now reality is inspired by fiction: the Philadelphia Zoo named three blackfooted cats of a rare species after my dragons. 
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so from this  wh was light  web-z    to more solid   - int

blackfooted cats  smallest of wild cats  cute round     wkp then to
phylogenetics   (Greek: φυλή, φῦλον – phylé, phylon = tribe, clan, race + γενετικός – genetikós = origin, source, birth)     so oh greek like friend like philosophy   or is dffr word the vowel  φιλοσοφία,   if dffr seems likely related anyway makes sense to think  friend  tribe clan  what goes together
phylo genesis  what goes together in origin, beginning,   (or to bring into english thinking  in genetics)
I do get int in this of crs wh goes tgthr  what are dffrncs   these are our  categories    inherent in any sense  maybe if truly evolutionary  (truly? do I doubt?)   bears  dogs  cats
phylogenetics    tree of life web project   http://tolweb.org/tree/
[ and just in mind to read  wkp simple  'what is' re Life ]
 and then just thinking of,
ontogeny recapitulates phylogeny
sjc lab pink cover a dividing what?  incr complexity  not just number parts but number of relations  number kind of relations  (also of crs of int to me  whole other level  position change in position speed velocity  change in velocity acceletation   (change in acceleration?    )
.. recapitulation theory
ontogeny  coming into being  
y vs onto logy study of being 
 so in mind  to see  wkp simple  re Ontology 
 heidegger y of crs  ...
one via-line then fr here H ...
wkp note  Hyde, R. Bruce. "Listening Authentically...
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bruce_Hyde_(academic)  
Hyde, R. Bruce and Drew Kopp. 2013. Connecting Philosophy and Communication: A Heideggerian Analysis of the Ontological Rhetoric of Werner Erhard.Submitted to the Philosophy of Communication Division National Communication Association Conference
... en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Erhard_Seminars_Training   est      
participants  en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Douglas_Engelbart    hypertext  remember my int?!

oh and in mind  just in cnnxn ontology h philos  had in past thought to read through  Kant simple wkp re Kant  transcendental deduction  what is.  read sum.
Kant examined experience in general, dissecting in it what is supplied by the mind from what is supplied by the given intuitions. What has just been explicated is commonly called a transcendental deduction
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Immanuel_Kant#Categories_of_the_Faculty_of_Understanding

 other via-line fr ontology
 E-prime  oh of int  did I know  like the kid at sjc  speak without saying   to be 
English without use of that verb parsing uses 'to be'
 existence  identity   location     so I guess replace those usages w "exist" ~
grammatical usages wld need dffr grammar   ?  
 D. David Bourland, Jr., who had studied under Alfred Korzybski, devised E-Prime as an addition to Korzybski's general semantics in the late 1940s
Korzybski  book Science and Sanity    * full text online:  http://esgs.free.fr/uk/art/sands.htm
that is not the book that I have annapolis second hand?  grey typewrit like  to me wh might call random  or esoteric  maybe is not did I ever ggl it?
maybe not korzybski but is general semantics? 

 ...  "The map is not the territory".  "A map is not the territory" The expression first appeared in print in "A Non-Aristotelian System and its Necessity for Rigour in Mathematics and Physics", a paper that Alfred Korzybski gave at a meeting of the American Association for the Advancement of Science

...  and then from here to Laura Riding, whole other in mind
(new window whole set tabs!    and y do recall known to me privateness pond ducks wh is in progress of stories  this is less happy to think of though still like it.  and know re rejection of poetry  but not spent time wh.  truth.    and have seen before not spent time  that her late work  book is The Telling   wh is so on point as my. 
 .. but of some int, lighter   meanwhile new to me I think,   a novel somewh re her relation while w rbt graves then w jackson who she married, his former wife breakdown  as protagonist    The Summer of '39 Miranda Seymour   of int

more serious:
 https://www4.ntu.ac.uk/laura_riding/
https://www4.ntu.ac.uk/laura_riding/books/38535gp.html    THE TELLING

The first six statements

1. There is something to be told about us for the telling of which we all wait. In our unwilling ignorance we hurry to listen to stories of old human life, new human life, fancied human life, avid of something to while away the time of unanswered curiosity. We know we are explainable, and not explained. Many of the lesser things concerning us have been told, but the greater things have not been told; and nothing can fill their place. Whatever we learn of what is not ourselves, but ours to know, being of our universal world, will likewise leave the emptiness an emptiness. Until the missing story of ourselves is told, nothing besides told can suffice us: we shall go on quietly craving it.

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nytimes.com/books/first/s/seymour-summer.html
He did it with his first shot, brought that lovely sharp-beaked predator down to lie like a ghost in the grass, and then he burst out crying, caught hold of my hand and gripped it as though he meant never to let go again.


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https://macpaw.com/how-to/reduce-memory-usage-on-mac
* >>> looks helpful. read//
Ways to reduce memory usage on Mac (and free up your RAM). | macpaw |   
Sep 27, 2017  ( Updated: Mar 1, 2018 )


Activity monitor.  Memory pressure.  wh it all means.  ..   
If your graph is all but red and yellow, your Mac is really gasping for fresh memory.  /*??  "all BUT red & yellow"  ??  ???  <<< 
/maybe means if it is red and yellow.  both bad.  (wld guess red worse.)  mine yellow.  high memory pressure. 



Tip # 3. Clean up your Desktop

—CLEAN UP DESKTOP   *Thing is, your macOS was designed in a way that it treats every Desktop icon as a little active window. // !!!   huh!  //  I hope this d n also mean apps in dock.  no, right?   // 
The more icons, the heavier memory usage on Mac.  // mine are almost all text edit but still.  and some pics, not big files, pngs  old pics less high mb, grab screenshots.  wld just mean active windows = running the app Preview ?

////////// so, am clearing.   new folder   then will put in Documents.   or on own in dock:
* 20180505 FROM DESKTOP check for important notes reminders!  see comments re why clearing
*   clearing because mac os treats desktop items as active windows  : macpaw.com/how-to/reduce-memory-usage-on-mac
Tip # 3. Clean up your Desktop.    This tip always comes at the bottom of instructions and unfairly so as ** it is quite effective. ** The more icons, the heavier memory usage on Mac. So in order to release available memory resources, it’s recommended to keep your Desktop clean.  
 ** Thing is, your macOS was designed in a way that it treats every Desktop icon as a little active window. 
// !!  good to know!   even though ~ mine are mostly text edit. files small kb.  and I do not see text edit etc per activity monitor in high memory or cpu usage but still...  do have pics as well, not big  ~ png ..   and Grab screenshots.  


Tip # 6. Free up disk space if Mac is low on memory
The available space on your Mac’s drive translates into virtual memory. This comes to save you when you’ve run out of physical RAM. So now your computer relies on your hard drive space to keep your apps going.
The classic geek rule of thumb holds it that you should keep at least 20% of disk space fn your startup drive.
   keeps your Mac speedier.


But here’s a simpler solution to save your time — clean up your drive with CleanMyMac 3. The app is free to download. Many users recommend it as an excellent way to free up more space because it automatically searches for large & old files and shows everything you can safely delete. Interestingly, it finds about 74 GB of junk on an average computer.
// ok I guess never used this app, so maybe try.  shows wh can safely delete.   shows big files  probbbbably  iphoto.
had used various well maybe two disk cleaner programs, d n like…  





What else you can do to minimize memory usage on Mac


— Replace AdBlock (very memory-demanding) with a lighter extension
// oh... (but is it not saving fr running big busy ads?    ??   (maybe not)       <<<

—Keep fewer opened tabs in browser  /welll this is wh I want to have room *for* 














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Rooster Nonfiction Poll

The Rooster Nonfiction Poll
Vote for which three books you want to see in our first-ever Rooster nonfiction event.
// to happen in May.  so just one month april after end of this march tob.
per here on Goodreads group tmn Andrew Womack says when events will happen: 

  

The Rooster Nonfiction Poll

Vote for which three books you want to see in our first-ever Rooster nonfiction event. Poll closes Sunday, March 25, 2018, at midnight ET.

* Required

Which three books should we read in the Rooster nonfiction event? *

And Now We Have Everything: On Motherhood Before I Was Ready by Meaghan O’Connell

The Cooking Gene: A Journey Through African American Culinary History in the Old South by Michael W. Twitty

Eat the Apple by Matt Young

Educated: A Memoir by Tara Westover

The Fact of a Body: A Murder and a Memoir by Alexandria Marzano-Lesnevich  // < look at. 
Before Alexandria Marzano-Lesnevich begins a summer job [june 2003] at a law firm in Louisiana, working on the retrial defence of death-row convicted murderer and child molester Ricky Langley  
she is staunchly anti death penalty  but when hears him speak of his crime .. 
     [he was 26 grew up in small town at time was renter in home of boy whose friend, 6yrld jeremy, came over and ricky invites in to wait then in wh ricky says was like a dream he picked jeremy up..] 
https://www.criminalelement.com/stories/2017/05/the-fact-of-a-body-new-excerpt       
something in his story uncannily familiar.  //th hooks but ~ is re personal hist abuse? ~ and true crime, d n like th kind of descriptive
http://webcache.googleusercontent.com/search?q=cache:4bMEiJ_rijsJ:https://www.vogue.com/article/the-fact-of-a-body-alexandria-marzano-lesnevich-interview&num=1&client=firefox-b-1&hl=en&gl=us&strip=1&vwsrc=0
“The causes, in fact, are endless,” writes Marzano-Lesnevich. “The idea of proximate cause is a solution. The job of the law is to figure out the source of the story, to assign responsibility. The proximate cause is the one the law says truly matters. The one that makes the story what it is.” 
//ex train platform successive events lead to a death of someone down the platform.  legal qstn who at fault. but how is there such a qstn in a case of a man physically with intent (even if dreamlike) causing a child to stop breathing.

* Heart Berries: A Memoir by Terese Marie Mailhot  // I like wh says in article re preferring not 'resilient'  //

Hunger: A Memoir of (My) Body by Roxane Gay  // ~

* I Am, I Am, I Am: Seventeen Brushes With Death by Maggie O’Farrell   //  * v int in. fr 2002 I remember-  after I've gone   ..  After you'd Gone. 

Insomniac City: New York, Oliver, and Me by Bill Hayes

* A Kind of Mirraculas Paradise: A True Story About Schizophrenia by Sandra Allen // edited writings sent to her by uncle (who had not seen in yrs. sent to her bcs she was a writer? ~ buzzfeed) 

The Line Becomes a River: Dispatches From the Border by Francisco Cantú  // I like the title.

An Odyssey: A Father, a Son, and an Epic by Daniel Mendelsohn

Priestdaddy: A Memoir by Patricia Lockwood


* the three I wld vote for?  the three I wld most expect to care about.  
but for reading in this way, maybe the underlined.  
wld guess the legal memoir may get voted.  and roxane gay maybe bcs so well liked.  
and mailhot maybe.  all women.  only the first white (or biracial?)

https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSeGB7DzmZY9LUwvC5hVqsDT086Gz4Wgg4VJssT7wm5F0i-XhQ/viewform 

(yes as I thought might, poll page no longer shows now that voting closed)

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Amy S • 31 minutes ago

Dear Commentators (and Judges) - thank you for those moments when you give me a zillion other links to follow down rabbit holes! I just returned from a deep dive on Christine de Pizan & Jean de Maun among others. Always love the suggestions this community throws out for my edification!

llj  Amy S • 14 minutes ago
This is the first day of real commentariat commentariness, isn't it? Seems like the upsets shut things down pretty quickly days 1-4.

//int bcs first day I am following ~ reading midday ~ 
but am v int to read cmmts fr past 5 matches re upsets, incl contentious?
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www.themorningnews.org/tob/2018/white-tears-v-the-idiot.php#comment-3794842663

Chico McDirk  Ellen H. • 2 days ago

Somehow, How a Person Should Be will end up in the final.

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barefootgirl  Andrew Womack • 7 months ago

I went with Fever Dream mostly because it was the only one that stuck the landing for me. I think the short length really helped this one, the author did not do too much. This one really lingered and left a lot of good unanswered questions.

Tim  Andrew Womack • 7 months ago

Tough choice, I'd really like to see =The Night Ocean= and =A Separation= make the tournament, both were really well done books, and both have stuck with me. And maybe it is just some proximity effect, but I voted for =Fever Dream=, which I also really enjoyed. It may be a little unfair, because I think =The Night Ocean= kept surprising over a much longer length, and I felt the (sadly not on the ballot) =A Separation= was subtle and most rewarded a careful thinking about. But I did think =Fever Dream= handled itself really well, in the mixing of technological catastrophe with mystical catastrophe, in the sustained tension, and in the fever dream like quality of the writing (although I guess that's not a very direct translation of the original title).

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