the soaps

wee this is fun

Nikki receives a phone call as she's making morning coffee and Michelle is heading off to work. Michelle says "who's calling you at this hour of the morning?" (Nikki: "my agent hopefully, with work." nikki's pretty natural on screen isn't she?) The call is from photographer Michael, who is at Luke's apt surveying the damage that Tania did to Luke's painting of Michelle... Michael asks Nikki to lunch. And then! Luke: "you want a beer?" and Michael enthusiastically, yeah. did the writers mess that up or do they mean to show the boys having a beer at like 8am?! they couldn't intend that could they

and michael comes across as a cute nice guy. I think maybe he and nikki do seem less awkward than luke and michelle - the lead characters to wh they are the supporting.
I like this group of four, though, I like the friendships.
and I even like the awkwardness, it makes it interesting. transparent tv or sth.

re Desire - the commenter on twop forum is right about kristoff (the chef at the restaurant) and not needing two bad guys with an accent. each time I see kristoff I think he's a george at 1st. they have the *same* accent don't they? what is it? native Spanish speaker? I don't know. and their hair is similar and their evil guy facial expressions..

aw luke & michelle he put his hands on her shldrs as she walked him out - oh it's the we like each other moment where it's so open that you acknowlege it but it's not formal yet - and they do this scene well it's sweet - "you can't keep stopping by like this, I don't want people thinking I'm messing with the boss's son" -"you're messing with the bosses son?" (very Girls just want to have fun "who's this boyfriend?" - and 'messing' I think of ivania and hs and it seems perhaps realistic) and he keeps looking at her and they keep smiling aw. michelle: "and I just ended a relationship, and you're in one" - luke "I ended mine today" - "you did?" and she's totally smiling.
then mean mom interrupts. so: why does she mind her son liking michelle but ok with him living with tania? ok maybe bcs can tell he really likes her. mom (maria - bo derek) says to her shrink that luke gets that look that men get when totally taken by a woman. which, ok maria then he's probably not 'deliberately' picking women you won't like, as you just said. this mom jealousy, is it weak as a storyline? maria says michelle 'is nothing like me. she's a social climber' - huh? why think that?
I like how bo derek looks, I don't think I'll like morgan fairchild as much the big hair.
bo derek maria is waring yellow scarf as headband tonite, pretty.

and look at this. gloria the husband-stealer humanized - a sweet sweet son. and a mom (boy's grandmother) she's nice to. I guess - what was that about giving her perfume then "mom mom that's expensive stuff" - ?

think I like the b&w freeze frames.

oh yeah and I like the wllm chandler being mean-husband's client. what is husband's job? not a lawyer, an agent of some kind. nice multiple connections -
and husband a bit more interesting.

aw Again michelle and luke are endearing. she's on way out to lunch with her boys the two designers. (they come up to her standing by mean-new-designer "we're taking you out to lunch" - mean-new-guy: where are you going? "to lunch", emphatically) then they're outside and luke comes up and the boys knowingly go off to put name in at restaurant "he's not here to see us"
then aw they just stand there smiling. this is much better than the dumb tongue tiedness like on wonder years. this is pretty real I think. "you look good" michelle:you look good too. .. you look nervous. "that surprise you?" you usually look like you have it all together "well I get nervous when I first meet someone" aw. ('cause he does look nervous, this looks unscripted, unacted, just like they really like each other. I wonder if looks this way to others ---) then asks her to model for him - she says, nude? - no. I mean, the second time. cute. oh then they sort of almost hug and don't they don't know how to part oh. great to remember this happens in real life. it's like the best thing ever. pretty great.

ooh then evil music cut to a car where someone is watching. I tht it'd be husband but no it's crazy skinny model tania contorting her face.
then final scene - therapist: "I still don't get why you don't like her [michell]." - "I keep telling you" - beep - "saved by the bell." hrm. does this show that the writers know it's unclear why Maria is so anti-Michelle? anyway you gotta love this - not only 1) does the therapist get up and go stop a tape recorder that is in a drawer but 2) we see that someone is watching him. the hits! keep coming! they don't stop! unhappily though the person watching is wllm chandler and that's one too many of the connections being to him. better if it had been someone else more surprising. michelle's exhusband maybe - I don't know how he'd be connected but that's what wld make it interesting. more of a web. (we already know wllm chandler is all interconnected and playing everybody ~)

so does this all my freestyle noting mean fashion house is better (to me) than desire? hmm maybe. more sophisticated? I think I am glad that on tuesdays I can watch FH btw gilmore girls and boston legal (odd triad - disneyish with one superb actress, glitzy soap opera, top-notch sheeny drama with first rate writing and acting). if missing one of these I'd rather it be desire. funny, by having no repeats it does feel like scarcity, though it's on Every Day.
desire is fun in how innocent or sth seems. fake I guess, I mean I don't think there's been any bit of it that feels real - ? - that I enjoy as real-ish like luke and michelle. - plus it has the most awfully ridiculous bit, the mob going after louis. and the two brothers are pretty poor actors or something, maybe it's the story. it's like it's another era or another country or in another language or something. --the past is another country they do things differently there---
Fashion House is also adapted from a Spanish telenovela right? but seems less so? seems more American? nikki and michael especially maybe. hmm - fewer accents than on desire? where there's the australian blond in addition to the two george & kristoff plus george's sister played by sofia milos plus the brothers' mom seems sort of have an accent and the piano guy but on desire everybody sort of seems to have an accent even those that don't really -- andrea, the brothers-- (one exceptn is claudia - friend of andrea who likes alex - she seems like someone from my world) --why is that? bcs their speech is stilted? or bcs they actually do have accents just mostly overcome? nah seems unlikely. might just be the context that foreign ctry ish ness of the whole thing.
yeah actually there isn't anyone on FH that has that foreign ness.
hmm and the sets are more cool colors blue and lots more light.
desire dark restaurant reds and browns. the one light bit I think of is where (2x so far at least) Andrea and 2 friends - the blond curly who goes after George and a black woman who only appears here - eat lunch. and that looks to me like it's outside a palace or sth.
oh and andrea's dad seems italian ~ no? maybe I can't tell italian from spanish I dunno - and then there's the italian mob guys. so, more European in mood? less American? I dunno. more foreign to me from me from network primetime maybe.
oh and FH better title, I don't like 'Desire'. but maybe even that is fitting that it has an overdramatic title with little resonance with the story. and tag ' a beautiful woman comes btw 2 brothers ' well not really Louis is just a big dud and that comes btw him and his brother.. (after 1st forcing them and mom to flee across the ctry after house and newly built business burnt to the ground! as they remind us in the dialogue "remember louis this is your fault, we had finally built our restaurant and then you slept with the mafia boss's daughter"

this is tv that makes home feel home-y. ! which is nice really nice. bcs it's on at same time every day? normalizing or sth? bcs it reminds me (not consciously) of watching Guiding Light every afternoon in Berlin after school ? - at like 2pm. no it must have been at 3, school letting out at or after 2. and I'd make ramen or a microwave pizza and sit in the room that was the last of 3 doorways on the right off the hall.
1st kitchen 2md computer room 3rd sofa and tv and a lady puppet or whatcallit with skirt covering a plastic jar of chocolates formerly. upstairs 1st guest rm slash dad's study 2nd guest room with double bed 3rd my room.
other side 1st dimit's room 2nd parents. (and before, the 6 or so steps up to the little half-height room I liked with little window and my fold out chair bed. what could that room have been designed for??? did I ever distinctly ask that and did anyone tell me what they supposed??) downstairs on left there was the dining room with doors out to a back patio (fr wh steps down to yard? where a sandbox!) and also door btw to 2d rm fancy living room (no tv - a sitting room perhaps better called) and in back of that a rectangular offspring breakfast nook or sth did we just have plants there Ican't picture it and don't think we sat there but I like that it was there.
nice house. strange?
I remember a chimney cleaner coming to the door.
did we let him come in and clean the chimney? he was what he claimed to be right?
ah life.
from the front door which was on the side before you went into the long hall off which the rooms you could go upstairs or down and down was to basement green walled stone cold rooms mazed several of them. I did dancing there. did we have any furniture in those rooms? have to ask mom about these qstns.
and did my parents know I came home and watched guiding light everyday?
I also watched dolly parton xmas special and tht at the time that it was sad or depressing or sth that it bespoke sadness that I was watching that bcs my family wouldn't get up yet and I was all alone xmas morning. probably really did feel some alone ness alienatn I'd like a diffrnt word - sad that I wasnt caught up in feeling that it was xmas instead just waiting for others to get up so could act like it was. so, what? screw you I don't want to act I'll spend all my xmas's alone essentially watching the dolly parton xmas special ie as an outsider ? (frog hosp: "and what? how was I supposed to make my own self, out of thin thin air and alone?") note that at that time dolly parton didn't mean anything happy to me like she does now. just meant over-the-top or ~tacky or sth.
the store across the street selling gummies and schule tasche federtasche notebooks too and had a deli counter and looked like a house upstairs in back? wieviel kostet das? zehn pfenig. ein mark.
and to the side or down the street more the path back to the gardens. and down the path to the back a playground where I'd swing.
and further down the street Carstenstr turn right go up to McNair - spelling?
turn left goes to stores or catch bus - to katya's - and there's a cemetery behind a wall.
if go down Carstenstrasse the other way turn right out our house gate then at corner an imbiss where wait for school bus. or if turned right there and go wld get to Andrews. Mcnair left then right. Andrews right then left. the two bases. at Andrews a pool. and a main bldg where I got nachos good specially soggy and tv played video song I liked - head toes sth ~ lisa lisa. so that's Andrews, bldgs brickish redbrown. a church too with services for diffrnt relgns. McNair was pale old green. a parade at some pt or sth. a video store neve regularly went to?
sad thinking of these, sweet sad, nostalgia, memory like marcel proust. things were in space over and up to McNair, down and back to Andrews. over and down a cememtery and stores and oop careful the memory here blurs with Bad Vilbel bcs I guess ah there too it was sort of over and down to the german town ctr. sweet sad bcs seems happy. full, life. so sad bcs gone? "all that time not spent now spent" bird - playwrite - tennessee wllms ? in Art of the Personal Essay,taken w me to greece that summer.
it goes on and on.

sad really sad bcs I lost that, life, I think I lost more than you are supposed to, you're supposed to lose childhood, innocence, is that all I mean? no, I lost inside-ness (is that why I say the directions things were in? but I might still describe that way: up to 53rd, over to the bookstore...) - it's not just that it's past it's that by hs I wasn't inside like that, rm then sjc I wasn't innocent-inside-living. remembering annapolis is not much different than living it was. I was already remembering it. that's what it's like. but remembering berlin is different than living it was. living it was actually living it.
I don't think you're supposed to lose that.

LATER on rereading - I meant inside-the-world-ness. insideness in outside world. (and so, H was relevant. falling-into-everydayness and its contrary.though for him the everydayness falling.)
to be sure, I got plenty of interiority or whatever.