GAMES PEOPLE PLAY
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huh: texts ('sources' I suppose) for lines.


a-talkin' bout you and me --- so I remember jp coming by to see me at p&p. I was wearing those fragile widedark blue pants fitted around waist I think he touched my waist, it makes me sad to flash on that memory. with a white shirt and maybe necklace no a headband ~ that blue strip with pattern ~ remembered bcs it was an especially invented outfit. we were in the cafe and he said he was tired of the games he & I played.
I think I was dramatic angryish to that, like: what games. when I remember it, I think he was being earnest. and I am sorry I was not.
then did he tell me about going to russia and theree being a forest where buried bodies had just been found. a massacre.
so when was that? summer 1996 that's my guess. so I am 19 and that past fall I came out of breaking by wanting, telling him about it. he said that's a cloud I've never seen. and then things lightened and he called and said, you get more charming every year.
then: we could talk about when the last time I called someone charming was, or if I ever have.
then in March after not calling from school he came in the night with his friend. and Glenn was at my house and they went in the living room and he said he was sorry and again in my head I was that dramatic voice ('yes, yes you are sorry') rather than earnest. I was shaking and he was sitting next to me.