pallavyanisin: 17 Aug (1) but post actually dated 8/20?

'I sleep late, and when I finally crawl out of bed, I have no desire to do anything...I'd be so glad to write something more cheerful, but there isn't anything..I have to force myself to do something, or I'd just go back to bed. There's a terrible loneliness inside me, I don't feel like talking to anyone.' p62-3

'I don't want to pull myself together anymore.' p66 yes that is what I've.

'A thought is taking shape, then suddenly it notices that there is nothing more to think.' p75

A Sorrow Beyond Dreams, Peter Handke, 1972, tr Ralph Manheim 1974 FSG
NYRB 2002 1590170199 read at register, not purchased I've typed that.