Orphan Black - dreamed of it, *sort of* gotten it, then lost it

Orphan Black - Page 59 - Sci-Fi and Action Adventure Shows - TWoP Forums: at the same time, Sarah does love Helena, in a way that no one who hasn't dreamed of something their entire life and *sort of* gotten it, then lost it, can love.



-Ailiana:

I think Sarah put it pretty clearly--she had been dreaming of a
familly her whole life, a bio familly that would care about her and make
her part of something.  She loves Felix, of course, but there is a part
of her that wanted her "real" family.  And despite all the horrible
things Helena has done, and Sarah's knowledge of that, killing Helena
took that dream away forever.  And she couldn't tell anyone that she
felt like she had lost someone important, because of all the things
Helena did.  No one would understand.  So when Helena came back, and not
just came back but did so in such a dramatic fashion and saved Sarah's
life and just held her and expressed love (even if it's through Helena's
cracked lens, that love means something), and didn't hold a grudge
about the shooting--it gave Sarah back that dream of family.

I think Sarah knows Helena is dangerous, and that she is a knife that
could easily turn in her hand and hurt Sarah or other loved ones--at
the same time, Sarah does love Helena, in a way that no one who hasn't
dreamed of something their entire life and *sort of* gotten it, then
lost it, can love.