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** The Best TV Shows of 2019  | Vuture | Matt Zoller Seitz &  jen chaney :   * Euphoria y y y    
 * Dark Crystal  y y   a prequel to the 1982 puppet fantasy Dark Crystal, which was deemed too dark for popular taste. As it happens, popular taste eventually caught up  <<    mzs
 > Barry   still a show about a hit man attempting to leave the killing life in order to pursue acting, but it’s more broadly about whether it’s possible for anyone to lead an honest life.   /hm./ also darkly hilarious.   //
 > Unbelievable / had not hrd  y th is kaitlin dever (justified) in header pic   also toni collete // 

Brkg Bad sequel.  

summary The Path  ~  eh   but had seemed might be int how aaron paul char went fr being cast out  skeptical to unblvr  to prophet
fr read re The Path >   re Kambo
 https://iakp.org/faq/ |   The strings leaves a tiny white line on each leg which stops anyone from harvesting the frog again until it has faded which takes at 2-3 months. /ok./ .. Kambo collected in this way is considered 100% ethically harvested. Kambo frogs that are held in a laboratory environment or squeezed or harmed in any way during the harvesting process are not considered to be ethically harvested. Kambo can be sourced from some of the Panoan tribes and also over the internet. We do not advocate self-administration unless you know exactly what you are doing and why you are doing it. Before you buy Kambo from anyone, check that you know where it is coming from, how it is harvested and who is benefiting from the inevitable financial exchange. It is of vital importance that the indigenous people of the Upper Amazon benefit from the sale and use of their medicines.
Kambo is one of the strongest natural anti-inflammatory    antibiotic   anaesthetic /huh/ substances.    one of strongest natural ways strengthen immuns system  /ppl w MS trying it? //    ok all th int   but ~ this:  /  The Kambo will be racing around your body, scanning it for problems and then going directly to work on those areas. You may experience a throbbing or burning sensation in those areas for a short while.   //d n believe it is 'scanning' even as metaphor ~  wh cld it be doing th wld be like scanning and working on?  

https://web.archive.org/web/20190606112540/https://www.vice.com/en_au/article/gqkxa9/kambo-ceremony-alcoholism-purging-uk     vice.com/en_au/article/gqkxa9/kambo-ceremony-alcoholism-purging-uk      * massive rearrngmnt  nervous system/ huh.//        How Amazonian Tree Frog Poison Became the Latest Treatment for Addiction - VICE  |  kambo is used by the giant leaf frog to produce a "molecular electric shock" in a predator's mouth, so it is quickly ejected. The poison works by overloading the predator's internal system with chemicals, prompting regurgitation ..   I would not be at all surprised if kambo worked well in cases of depression, because there are so many substances in it that affect the brain. Taking kambo leads to a massive rearrangement and overload of the nervous system; it changes our neurochemistry."  /huh.  //    contains opioid peptides such as dermorphin, dermenkephalin, and the deltorphins, which are are ingested via the burn points. These are potent opioid receptor agonists in the central nervous system, which by definition will affect the mental state, ie y 'psychoactive'

potent opioid receptor agonists   > 
 naabt. org advocates Buprenorphine treatment |    What’s this agonist antagonist stuff?          / via in re kambo 'opioid receptor agonists' /     Buprenorphine is a partial agonist meaning it activates the opioid receptors in the brain, but to a much lesser degree than a full agonist (heroin, opium, morphine,  oxycodone, methadone /wh used as replacemnt thereapy?/).  Buprenorphine also acts as an antagonist, meaning it blocks other opioids, while allowing for some opioid effect of its own to suppress withdrawal symptoms and cravings. This is why it would be misleading to classify buprenorphine as a replacement therapy. It would be equally misleading to classify it solely as an opioid blocker (naltrexone. naloxone /wh used smtms reverse overdose/).


~  ggl tuberous breasts autoimmune hormones  ~  autoimmune estrogen 
science daily Women are more prone to the development of autoimmune diseases. The female hormone estrogen is likely to affect the immune system.May 31, 2018
https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S0091302214000466    Gender diffs in autoimmune disease   
https://palmerkippola.com/healing-stories/how-i-reversed-multiple-sclerosis       How I Reversed Multiple Sclerosis    // > frfx bkmrk there, along w tuberous bkmrks etc








"are you that aunt who has a bath tub in the living room" and spends the whole day in it - Ggl   /not fr anything is it?  wish it was! 
Eva Victor on Twitter: "me when someone asks “what's new”… "    ▶  frog by       https://twitter.com/evaandheriud/status/1173211823736336384
  -phantom type:   "are you that aunt who has a bath tub in the living room and spends the whole day in it”   
  -LOL!  I enjoyed answering "menopause" with a straight face, a few years back.  Shut that annoying question down quick.   /is this what she thinking frog expressing?   so hot ?  //
 -@dalphond : Is this yr first day or something? Brand new, huh. Weird choices yr makin. They say come get your people and I’m like okay but it’s only skin deep.   // ? joking right or

Eva Victor  263.5K Followers   /just came to  incidntl  via retweet or sth like fr sth vanderwerff twitter to someone else twitter to her/
 pinned  Jun 4   me explaining to my boyfriend why we’re going to straight pride  “there are 364 days a year where we enjoy unblvbl priv  and 1 day  one day  where we get to celebrate hvg that prvlg Alll year round.    I was born  and I was like ok  I feel dffrnt fr absltly nobody    and now I’m an adult  and I still feel Totttally fine  bcs the world is totally made for me       I’m at work and I’m straight   and everyone’s like Gotcha   and now I leave work and I get to go smwhere and be straight and everyone’s like Cool   itjust feels like Finally you know wh I mean   

Oct 19   “…Do you think there’s sth I can do to make  this moment  less painful for the both of us   and that’s just a taste of the consideration you’ll get fr me if we go on a date   …” me asking u out

dem debates   Oct 15
-my most surprising friend is climate change because i don’t want to stop that bitch from doing her thing apparently
-if i did the debate i would sing hallelujah the shrek version until i ran out of time, starting over again and again w each new question
-andrew yang is always like “and now .. a magic trick”







Oct 18  2019    re  reddit   


reddit there's a sub for that - Ggl /thought others might hv ggld this and y came up   and y:  If it exists, there is a sub for it. -   - r/wowthissubexists: Subreddits you didn't think existed, but they do. Go ahead and tell us about it.  < incl that :)     and     r/TheresARedditForThat
https://www.reddit.com/r/AskReddit/comments/9nzrb6/which_subreddit_makes_you_go_ahhh_i_guess_theres/
* /fnctl, stance ones  seem like responses / joking  when linked in other reddit threads //  Which subreddit makes you go, "Ahhh... I guess there's a sub for everything"? : AskReddit  1.6k cmmnts   /wh I am int in is not so m the v specific like 'AlligatorsWearing Hats' but  ~   functional? /viewpoint or stance or../  ones  that are like stances, can be linked to in replies on whatever other reddit and looks to me like a joke then is active!   "r/wewantplates"   and then there will be an opposite!  wh again I think is a joke  r/wedontwantplates  (and cld anyone make a subreddit just to make the joke?)  but but again, real and active  (and there are other opposites like th)

www.reddit.com › findasubreddit

Is there a reddit for spotting fake versions of real brands in movies? Like when a character has to use a search engine but can't use Google : findareddit  |  -Are you gonna do it on Reddit, or on the movie off brand, Aggregate  /oh :) there is a movie that shows a Reddit-like site called Aggregate   :)  th is actually a good name  sorta better for wh reddit is now  I remember the little reddit man ~ when started?  2004ish? seemed like (was initially?) for upvoting things read online  "read it"  and maybe little red icon red it ,    like web-log  link log   for sharing content  = the web 2.0 focus?  wh I liked!  came out of 'web surfing' I guess  no one now says "surfing the web"? :(      web 3 or 4.0?  emphasis -social- media?  anyway  maybe front page reddit still is for wh read  read it  like metafilter   /oh yeah Digg too.  closed I guess.  here mention 'Dugg' wh I guess was another movie offbrand)   / int anyway reddit and metafilter become a lot or more about community discussion (like The Well etc actually meant to be?) then about filtering web   <<< 

r/birthofasub // ah see th is the kind of thing I mean!  works as a reply!! (does linking also cross-post it?! maybe!) //


https://www.reddit.com/r/Thatsabooklight/   subreddit is for when you are watching a movie, and you suddenly notice that the high tech laser weapon is nothing more than the coffee mug in your cabinet with some bottle caps and batteries glued on.
maybe?  inside cheese grater looks like    [backdrop of most rap videos 2000s]   oh I tht was like futuristic background    it is cool !  pic here up into cheese grater  :)


Found!    A reddit where you post a pic of yourself, and people reply with characters you can cospla     r/WhoShouldICosplay


r/mapswithoutnz   --r/mapswithtoomuchNZ  / :)  /        -My personal favourites are when they put some text or logo over us instead of moving it just over to the side where there’s nothing but ocean for thousands of kilometres.   -I like to think that it stops us from being a target because they forget we exist and don't know how to find us.  -r/mapswithnojersey    -I'm a fan of r/MapsWithoutDenmark    -I need one without Florida
https://www.reddit.com/r/MapsWithoutUP/   Maps with Michigan's Upper Peninsula missing. Or where the UP is present but has been misassigned to Canada, Wisconsin, another state, its own sovereign state, etc.








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. . . .   10 ~23     lkg up Looking for Alaska bcs now a hulu show and thinking do john green's novels all hv this ~ pretty m exact mpdg thing rt ?

Why Are Manic Pixie Dream Girls Still A Thing? - Outsider Circle - Medium  /via lkg up Looking for Alaska bcs now a hulu show and thinking do john green's novels all hv this ~ pretty m exact mpdg thing rt ?  // and y seems like y.
John Green also published an essay on his website titled “The Destruction of The Manic Pixie Dream Girl”. Truly, it’s a monument to his talent that he was able to write that article with no hands, being as he was simultaneously patting himself on the back and jerking off to one of his own signed headshots.
responds to allegations about Margo, the heroine of Paper Towns, being another example of a MPDG. Green’s defense is that there is a separation between narrator and author, and that the reliability of the narrator is often a tenuous thing. He proposes that Margo is seen as a MPDG because that is the way that Q views her to be- it is Q’s perspective, not authorial insertion that makes Margo into this trope.   /yeah.  it's a story of a guy reacting to a girl this way. so. //   he’s saying that Q, and solely Q, is under the impression that Margo can be, must be the one to save him, the one who will show him the magical parts of life. As Green himself says it, Q’s perception of Margo as a MPDG “only acknowledges that some boys believe in Manic Pixie Dream Girls; it doesn’t argue that MPDGs actually exist, or that Margo is one”.   / ! was not ever meant suggest is a kind of person.  it is a depiction of a person.  a trope character.      a way (often young)  guys experience girls they hv crushes on.  drawn to whimsical usu troubled girl, idealizes, feels life changing.

   I think maybe whtvr ~   girls do the same ~  corresponding trope ?   mostly ~ bad boy  I guess   dylan mckay  logan echolls     my "wolf" type    whimsy in mpdg corresponds to  outsiderness   another kind (as whimsical free-spirited is) of boldness, daring, ex of being oneself. 
and usually also troubledness.  feels intimate, special, dramatic.
 
   “girls like bad boys’ trope  James Dean  Dylan McKay.  pretty recognized.  had that name.    mpdg trope had not been.    I guess int call out bcs then so recognizable  and  blahblah  bcs 'male gaze' was norm     


    ~  suppose a diffr is that those stories make Dylan an int char himself     ?  well ~ secondary though rt?  Brenda m more the protagonist   Dylan more about how he is experienced by her and Kelly  than about his experience of them rt?!   so.     Dylan objectified mostly?  not a protagonist   ~  we do see him separately sure  but
           are there viewers who identify with Dylan?   seems like there prob are but we wld think they were vain    daring cast thmslvs as the  char who ~ evbdy wants.    wh goes to th char is especially about how seen.  being alluring.    ~ object rather than subject.  
 
however    Logan    not just VM or Lily's experience.   no.  in fan eyes, maybe, more so. fans idealize him    ——
but the chars on show d n mainly see him in role of "alluring.”   s2 poss pity Logan.
      in a ~ weak position.  do we ever see Dylan seem weak?  “poor” Dylan?  only in re things already foregone, right.  past hurt. ‘damage.’   makes him alluring.  not things he is trying for.  th wld make pitiful.      // so Dylan  as prototyp bad boy?     maybe tim riggins too. 
    Pacey Witter?    like Logan, though, both more seen as protagonists than Dylan.
     guys might relate to without only seeming vain.  well Pacey more than Tim Riggins.
I guess goes to being a sex __     what called  oh rt  really forgot for a sec   sex symbol.   Dylan is.  Riggins is.   Pacey is not exactly.   
  Pacey  my  monkey type  as contrast wolf.  also appealling!  smwh same way?  irreverent.
  (monkey type d n = not as much a sex symbol?  maybe smwh but a funny and easygoing guy can still be.  right?  can be v desired.)
 my monkeys and wolves thing.  maybe that just represents more twd funny or twd angry.
 wolf  angry  are funny too    darkly :)   
    monkey also angry?  underlying?   well. was Pacey?   smwh to me ‘monkey’  type  not ‘bad’ I guess, not outsiders.  maybe more the kind of  'bad’ in way the wpost article just read "thought I was a Brandon girl, but wanted Dylan McKay"   talking about, just bcs a lot of wmn attracted to.  so "bad boy" idea as ~ policing female libido, that's why "bad" bcs women do find alluring  ~ wellll no, it is bcs appeal outsider, dramatic, intimate.    is that  ~masculine~ ? appeal    ~ anger  strength     
corresponding to ~feminine~ ?  appeal  ~ free?    (from the male world of business and family head.  civilization!   feminine can be one with the earth      “she’s like a butterfly don’t want to pin down”  a nymph )



——      continuing typing now in note not still in bkmrk! on chrome browser:      
   fans idealize but well maybe like him, too.  empathize *with* him.    and a guy saying that he relates to Logan might seem vain  but also cld imagine  relates to wh we see Logan experiencing.  maybe this is a lot bcs we do see him ~ pining.  not just hurt ie troubled, tortured.  but wishing, trying.  wanting and not getting.  in a ~ weaker position.  do we ever see Dylan seem weak?  “poor” Dylan?  only in re things already foregone, right.   makes him alluring.  not things he is trying for.  th wld make pitiful.  
watching s2 vm, possible to pity Logan.  coming into suite w Duncan, the friend he cares about and missed.     [  in re Veronica, epsd or two before, after fight w Duncan, D thinks exposing his hurt re V. “careful your soft underbelly is showing.”  and we do see L as still in love w her, but ~ not focused on?  accepted.  tough about.  “my underbelly is rock hard. I can go all night.”   believe that.  But “where were you?” to D.     
 
watching s2 vm, possible to pity Logan. twopj recapped this one  and says re L coming into suite, Duncan & V there watching Big Lebowski,  says about their reaction to him coming in, are they just annoyed he is there? bcs if so that’s pretty harsh.   /also says, I  like this, that the math of V goes ~ part % awkward bcs interrupted make out session, part % I forget what, and part % happy to see Logan bcs he’s awesome. :)    y I like th.  complicated.  might truly feel dislike for him.  even indifference. it can seem like that, she’s not wistful about.   wld like him not there.   but same time.  he does liven up a room!  I mean he makes it   more int. interesting - intense.  di piero “re work of art, not is it good, but ** Do you want to live there?  **  is it intense in way want to live there.” **     
still, in plain way not wanting him there, he is not in the desired position, weak. 

he is openly vulnerable with Duncan.     
          in re Veronica, epsd or two before, after fight w Duncan,
 D thinks L exposing his hurt re V “careful your soft underbelly is showing.” 
                     and   we do see L as still in love w her ~  but.     ~ moved on <—   ~ enough that there is room for doubt even.  not like pining. ~ that’s why complaints forum LoVe fans want tidbits that are not getting.  not seeing wistfulness.             —>  cld suppose  moved on, accepted partly bcs really is angry.  at her.     “fun!  having fun!  my girlfriend was killed, my mom died, my dad is a murderer, I’m being accused of murder, and the one person  ~  is abandoning me (? wh said?) …   and you think I’m having fun!”   so he is pretty angry.  not exactly wishing for her, in a presently longing way for her as she is there, at the moment.                 —>   and he’s accepted she’s w Duncan.  not necess bcs his respect for Duncan.   or that he is happy for her w him.  (d n seem like he is.  I guess not, he is angry.   “and now I’ve lost my appetite.”)    but he has to see it   (in way fans do not)   as a done deal.  it’s like the end of this love story, who ended up together.      //read someone  cmmt twop forum maybe   saying this about Veronica.  yes, probably can suppose, maybe we can see   she still strong feelings for Logan  and not simply denial about  (maybe sort of, choosing to be ‘normal’, so not acknowledging)  but also she sees Duncan as non-temporary.  is committed. expects this is her person.   =   ie has moved on.   actually. 
        so Logan seems like he has also.   moved on.       unhappiness but not ~ trying.  :/ well  wh is wh I said makes pitiful!    ~  he has accepted he lost her.  still pitiable  bcs  it is ongoing.  not past pain.  experience he still wld wish had gone Not This Way.  he is in the ~loser~ position.     Duncan: “You lost her. I didn’t steal her.”    
but so Duncan wrong though   re V    “careful your soft underbelly is showing.”       “my underbelly is rock hard. I can go all night.”      moved on.  accepted.  tough about. seems true.  d n seem like dissembling when he says “To hell with V.  she’s in the rearview.”   [but]  
“Where were YOU this summer?”           

openly vulnerable wanting Duncan’s friendship.  hurt by.     and openly hurt that V left him.   not exactly presently wanting her.  but ongoing hurt by her.        (more pitiable than seductive.  though *to fans* may be alluring!  ~  bcs?   bcs he is just so appealling, charismatic.  so d n matter that  he is in position of not being wanted.    fans see V as wrong.  she actually does want him.  they dfntly d n see Duncan as the desirable one. 






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https://tripwirejournal.files.wordpress.com/2019/06/tw.renee_.pdf

p176JENA OSMANfrom “Motion Studies
//this is so good!   beginning ~~   / facing page, odd pages, re Motion Capture

Her body is lifted onto a stretcher for transport, and he clings to her, unseen, like mist. He feels hands move through him to secure her arms and legs, and to silently check her wristwatch device. He tries to keep his breath as quiet and even as possible, but fears his increased heart rate will sound an alarm.
How did they get caught in this net? They had been solid citizens at the company. When interest-targeted for purchases or events, they had purchased, they had attended. When asked to review, they had done so eagerly. They rated products, reviewed experiences, created wish lists. They left the RF tags in their clothing. At protests and demonstrations, they smiled for the police and their cameras. They fed all of their social media feeds. They had dabbled in online revelations and had uploaded video documentation. They had fed the machine so the broker would have plenty to sell. They had been sincere in their efforts. They had been efficient and true to their community. They each had recently received “employee of the month” program loyalty gift cards.
But somehow it had all gone awry. They had tried to keep coherent, but they kept falling apart, and the company had evidence in its archives. Their data profiles sent mixed signals, inputs were tagged as possible bots. At first each had tried to hide it from the other, ashamed of their algorithmic failure, anxious for their financial future. Until one night they confided in each other, surprised but relieved that they weren’t alone in their honest mistakes. They strategized about how to clean up their data streams, their paradoxical profiles, their illegible patterning and unmarketable traces. Now he can feel her heart beating, tucked beneath his own. He tries to get a sense of where they’re going, what will happen to them. Then a black sheet is draped over her and all goes dark

p177 Motion capture was first used in biomechanical research in the 1970s, but was quickly recognized as a powerful tool for animators. In a motion capture studio, actors wear tight-fitting body suits with white reflective markers placed at the joints. Variously positioned digital cameras record the white markers 120 times or more per second, sending thousands of floating point values into a data file. The data files show the position and rotation of the body, but not its muscles or identity; the actor has been stripped away, leaving only movement behind. Extracted (ghosted) action is then used as a foundation for a virtual composition.   …  

p178 178All he can hear is an engine. And then the engine stops. And then they are lifted from an interior to an exterior. And then the engine starts again without them. And then it is silent. He waits a long time. If he moves, if he lifts the black sheet and they aren’t alone, his presence will be given away. He can still feel her heart beating against his, but slower, in a deep sleep. He wishes he could move through her, but he is only a transparent skin.
Eventually she twitches awake, unharmed. She throws the sheet, and him, off. He quickly looks around: lush grape arbors, rolling hills, not much else. Have they made it to New Wilderness? She looks down at her wrist and sees that the inflammation is gone. Her body feels sore. She thought she had died. There is a moment of wonder and relief.But something is wrong. When they turn away from each other’s eyes to the place that they’re in, the arbor has become a barren tract of lines and objects, abandoned engineering projects, pipes, a culvert. Then the world begins to erase itself, then redraws back to the wild, only to disperse and decay again. They hold onto each other as if the earth might crack open, but nothing rumbles, nothing shakes. Just the smooth glide and reshuffle of competing landscapes. The barren tract erases, redraws, becomes the New Wilderness. Then the ghost of the former grows and embeds in the new. Then the new leaves its residue in the former, grapes scattered across a plot of dirt.Is this a glitch?





GERMÁNSIERRA is a neuroscientist and fiction writer living in Spain. He has published six books of fiction in Spanish—El Espacio Aparentemente Perdido, La Felicidad no da el Dinero, Efectos Secundarios, Alto Voltaje, Intente usar otras palabras, and Standards. His first book in English, The Artifact (2018), was published by Inside the Castle
Cloudwall

GERMÁNSIERRACloudwall

//no not same as above but right below (after, in issue).     odd also  confluence    above p177…In order for the virtual to feel real, the real must be stripped of its body, dematerialized until just a dot or a line on screen remains. Then given a new skin. The bird becomes a long-headed yellow-eyed              and here tin bird golden eyes:

She’s an archaeologist: She unearths eerie things, such as the big tin bird with golden eyes hypothetically intended for astronomic calculations

p181   Recently, she’s been unearthing certain stuff that wasn’t supposed to be there and hiding it at home: a fairly well-conserved but unidentifiable iPhone 20, a real-size Barbie doll, and a sophisticated-looking metallic prosthetic hand. All of them prevenient from the underneath of a never-before-excavated Romanesque chapel. All of them, most probably, originated in what is commonly calledthe future.

p198 // I like this.  is this Jena Osman ?  ending of wh I earlier started at top?  //
Fake or not, to her, the objects must be art. Put a frame around them. Real or not, their shared endurance would be love. He wouldn’t dare to touch her. I can’t see you, make yourself visible to me, please, she says. She’s packing the objects carefully. She’s sending them beyond the cloudwall, to a laboratory in America. Let’s see what they can find.

 —originally publishedin Numéro Cinq (VII, 10: Oct 2016


p192  He can’t recall recalling his first time. Not to recall recalling is supposed to be weird. This kind of stuff is expected to draw emotions and to be emojified somewhere into the body of the self—preferably close to its outer surface like scabies or tattoo ink.

///(above two Osman and Sierra mixing in mind reminds me as if read before, sth male female not embodied  remembering ~  maybe.  maybe: The New World  /weird  in Osman ’New Wilderness’/  by ~ chris ~  author of Ch Hospital  book  floating on see to a new world  )






Renee   Gladman   

/////y. I like fr wh read (bkmrkd /in chrome?) artist   J— Salz~?   how to be  artist   how to draw  if you write you already draw.  have a way of drawing. th is yours.  making marks.    /////  

* p108   I was now on the visual plane. Yet, it was writing that I was doing. The notion of “drawn writing” struck me as a new kind of conversation with prose. It was the writing of a text with its inner syntax somehow revealed.    Recently, when I find it difficult to explain what I’m doing and why I’m doing in clear, expository terms, I turn to a new form of expression I call a calamity (a kind of spiraling thinking essay that departs with no particular idea of where it’s going). I will end my lecture with a calamity I wrote a few days ago: 
… Monika Grzymala said, “Drawing was a  process of thought conducted by the hand,”      
And we wrote through the hand, even if it were typing, we used our bodies to write. /y./  So, drawing was writing, was how I wanted the quote to go on.    And to write was to think; to make lines was to draw; and lines were the foundation of writing. I made a line, and though it couldn’t be read, the narrative of my line began .  I made a line; it couldn’t be read,  I made the line while talking in my head, which was what I did while I wrote. So, I was writing, but it was drawing that had accumulated.       —adapted from the Leslie Scalapino Memorial Lecture, UC-Berkeley, 2014.    p110


p101 I suppose an alternative title for this paper could be “The body in prose.” But, this isn’t quite right either, because to say that there is a “body,” however abstract we allow it to be, is to place something between the mind and language that isn’t there. //y!!/ And, it’s this absent thing that becomes as I read.  //oh. ~   I say there really is not a body something there.  you say it comes into being  between mind and language  ~  like a  there   ok   sentence as space for living   ~  ~ 

I talk about how the duration of a passage feels, what am I getting at? To think through these questions we will examine a couple of sentences that appear formally interested in creating an experience for the reader.    beyond a mere transparency (as if a window into a world).  // ~  (‘mere’) 

Te frst sentence, taken from Gertrude Stein’s Ida, we read: There she was there was a crowd it was not very light, and she was close against so many, and then she stayed close against one or two, there might have been more room around her but she did not feel that way about it, anyway it was warm being so close to them and she did not know any of them, she did not see any of them, she looked far away, but she felt something, all right she felt something, and then the lecture or whatever it was was over. (13)

Let’s enter another prose architecture, one less complex in structure than Stein’s: We have gotten into the habit of inviting other couples to our house to play cards, and once they are here they stay for a long time. (Creature, 55) This sentence by Los Angeles-based prose writer Amina Cain opens a story in her recent collection Creature.    // from Dorothy Press !  right? //        I like it!  the sentence (just a sentence in book not the opening?)

RENEE GLADMAN is the author of eleven published works, including a cycle of novels about the city-state Ravicka and its inhabitants, the Ravickians,   //oh!!  so she is who I thought of when first saw name but thought was just reminded of by same or similar initials   why, bcs I tht felt name was less common than ‘renee’ ‘gladman’   and ahhh that is because of ‘Ravicka’  in there in my mind.   ** from Dorothy Press **   more than one   maybe three published by Dorothy   noticed     (each as the experimental poetics side (right?)  in a pair w other  book  on  side  literary narrative     wh are the two worlds Dorothy Pr says  poetics  & literary fiction ?   the latter might even be ‘experimental’ ~ ?   but just one side poetics  other side narrative  /  story)  anyway cool !                Renee   Gladman    novels re Ravickia                 

as well as Prose Architectures, her frst monograph of drawings (Wave Books, 2017). Recipient of numerous awards, fellowships, and residencies, she is Writer-in-residence at KW Institute for Contemporary Art in Berlin for 2019.



…      ok so   adapted from the Leslie Scalapino Memorial Lecture, UC-Berkeley, 2014.    here on pages numbered p91-110

> RENEE GLADMAN The Sentence as a Space for Living: Prose Architecture   [256 pgs /! ok whole issue?]   [here starting w p]91   Renee Gladman mini-feature    tw.renee_.pdf   tripwirejournal ~ poetics  (happened on in chrome via ortberg twttr eh  re anne carson) //   this feature looks v of int to me   /         I have read nearly all of Leslie’s [Leslie Scalapino] work, but it was th Northpoint Press series that really changed me as a thinker — /among which?  series is more than these three?// Considering How Exaggerated Music Is, That They Were at the Beach, and Way my absolute favorites.      ..   These interruptions, making fragments out of narrative space, question the very basis of experience, of being a participant and a witness. Scalapino’s em-dashes create intervals, pauses, where the reader is given room to consider how  events  take  shape,  and  how  time  sustains  and  disturbs  them—the telling of oneself in time, because it’s never just the object being observed.   /:( can I have credit for always fragments in composing any..?  :( //        I was changed  //from what??**//   by  the  way  the  speaker  (and,  with  that,  her  “speaking”) bisects  the  fact  of 92Renee Gladmanmini-feature“the  men”  who  are  “found  lying  on  the  street,  having/died,”    the men—when I’dbeen out in the cold weather—werefound lying on the street havingdied—from the weather, thoughusually being there when it’s warmer (Way, 51)  /y I do like  I like her     “thoughusually being there when it’s warmer”
z1909 a poetr





/  swan coach house / 
The "Southern Belle" Is a Racist Fiction | gawker 2014 |   // risky  to touch, like porcelain     The Southern Belle, you see, knows better than you do. She knows what is right—for her family, for herself, and for her country.  /hm.   //        the Old South is synonymous with the Antebellum south, which in turn is synonymous with the slave economy. Bu-bu-but tradition! Sorry. Your tradition was someone else's nightmare.        pining for those days  /for that that tradition/  pining for the comforts of whiteness when black people were property.                     Antebellum America cannot be redeemed for the sake of your wedding, fraternity mixer, or lifestyle website.  So: Please pick a different party venue, because otherwise your wedding is going to be shitty and racist.









xkcd420 Jealousy - explain xkcd  /the explanatn here actually not on it!    misses that he is talking not to Megan; it's not a lamentation that Megan can never have that experience again.  he's talking to the guy who is marrying her and it is a barb that that guy will never get to experience that falling-in-love again. "hope it stings."  :)  JEALOUSY.  

so there's two turns as read it. first, from sweet remembrance "...one of life's great joys" to bitter "and you'll never have it again."   and second, that he is talking not to Megan but to the guy: "Anyway I wish you & Megan the best."







> amptoons blog  itself  like “z1909 a web-z”


9/16/19    > aphantasia     

[http://amptoons.com/blog/?p=21893]
Aphantasia: A life without mental images | Alas, a Blog:
Honestly, before reading this article, I didn’t realize that other people DID have this sort of mental imagery. I mean, I heard other people say they were “picturing it in their mind,” but I always assumed that was a metaphor. So that’s a little bit freaky, to me.              // :)  y!  well I know I am "not very visual"  or "not pictoral"  seems like others see images more clearly.  more solidly!!   picture walking on beach ~ can sorta get backdrop, can try put myself in it, it won't stay.  more like non-vivid glimpses.  blurry sense of wh I am 'imagining'.  can make bit more defined w effort but still cannot maintain it, it  ~   /  it undoes   'undoes' 

Aphantasia looking back hist:  

Found 10 search results for 'aphantasia’
Sep 9, 2019
Picture This? Some Just Can’t - The New York Times  web.archive.org
Sep 4, 2019
Picture This? Some Just Can’t - The New York Times web.archive.org
Aphantasia - Wikipedia
I Have No Sexual Fantasies Due To Aphantasia - The Establishment - Medium



^ this is how happened upon, first have heard of?     *a-phantasia*   
I Have No Sexual Fantasies Due To Aphantasia - The Establishment - Medium 
^ happened read few things re VM on Medium, from there happened to look at   


^  via reading reaction to VM   / wh I agree with!!  as below   and also I think the story of these reactions   may already be the more int story than anyth in s4.        except, but they dropped it and by having Logan die (and with no powerful meaning in story) made imposs to return to: 
the one int story in s4, very good very impressive to me,  epsd 2 right?  as below:  what happens next .. one of the best and boldest ways that “Veronica Mars” has ever .. he punches a wall and asks her with his knuckles bleeding …  classic Logan enough for you?  she confirms Yes, yes it is.  ..       ……then next morning, very sad.    ///  Logan seemed sad overall.  (I think I wld have liked them to write him leaving her.  lovingly but bcs thinks best for them.  and then, ok, if want let that story go, don’t have him on the show.  have it be a sad loss in her past.  maybe someday come back to, maybe not.) 



Why 'Veronica Mars' Season 4 Fails Logan and Veronica ...    //bkmrkd on safari on phone I think/ 
https://variety.com › columns › veronica-mars-season-4-finale-logan-spoil...
Jul 19, 2019 - How 'Veronica Mars' Season 4 Fails The Show's Most Interesting ...
What happens next is easily one of the best and boldest ways that “Veronica Mars” has ever ... And when he punches a wall and asks her with his knuckles ...



 https://tvline.com/2019/07/26/veronica-mars-season-4-finale-backlash-logan-rob-thomas/#comment-list-wrapper
-honestly, it’s not about the show having Logan on it. Veronica Mars is the show. It’s about the way Rob Thomas set us all up. For lack of a better word–it was mean.
and unnecessary. Veronica was already sketchy about getting married, he could’ve had Logan give her an ultimatum and leave when she still said no.  //or not an ultimatum.  just, love you and think … //  If something like that had happened, I’d still watch (even with no hope of Logan returning). But by giving fans what they want and then ripping it away, keeping up this narrative that the show couldn’t survive with Logan (which sounds like he’s a lazy writer) and forcing Veronica into staying the same after all these years instead of letting her grow… why would fans come back? It’s not about what he did, it’s the way he did it, and the way he keeps digging the hole bigger and bigger.
-he is acting like Hulu demanded they kill Logan to get another season, or like he couldn’t feasibly write a season without Logan in it. I believe are are ways they could’ve written Logan out (breaking up, Logan being called away) or even had future seasons without Logan (Veronica being called in outside of Neptune for a case, or Logan being absent). Yes, people would be asking about Logan, but they’d still be watching. //y.// I’m sure plenty of people will still watch any additional seasons, but he cut out a huge portion of his viewers by doing this, and this performance he’s putting on like he had to do it, and there was NO possible way he could’ve written something else is a bag of excuses. And don’t even get me started on how lazy he is for skipping the entirety of Veronica’s reaction and grief process. How is that good for the character? Add on to that his comments that the other side characters will be around less and less, and he’s taking away a lot of things people like about the show. He’s the creator, and he can do what he wants with it, but this is a slap in the face to most fans who paid out of their pocket for his last revival. They deserved more.



vmheadquarters.tumblr.com/post/186405646906/veronica-mars-let-hulus-revival-send-you-back    [fr INQUIRER ]     >>
           inquirer.com/entertainment/tv/veronica-mars-review-hulu-kristen-bell-20190718.html   by Ellen Grey, Philadelphia Inquirer   //  I like her!!  —
           inquirer.com/author/gray_ellen/     [As a tv critic] I’ve always believed my job is less about [rating, assessing, ‘thumbs, up or down’ ie recommending, panning] and more about the conversation.    The more choices we have, the fewer people in our lives know what we're talking about when we say, "Did you see that?"    And that's when television really starts to get interesting.  // y!  nice. 

    inquirer.com/entertainment/tv/veronica-mars-review-hulu-kristen-bell-20190718.html      I’ve never quite understood the viewers who resist high school shows even as they tolerate [shows with grown-ups very much acting adolescent]    / adolesc behavior in [say, doctor shows].  But I know they exist, because I spent years trying to get them to watch Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Friday Night Lights.  :)
…    [Personal hurt, d]amage takes many forms, and the  [’unpeeling’  revealing ] of Logan Echolls’ psyche has been one of the show’s most compelling story lines.
The Logan reintroduced in the 2014 movie — a naval intelligence officer who needed Veronica’s sleuthing skills — is now again her boyfriend. More important, he’s a man who’s been working hard on himself (and not just on the prodigious six-pack he sports in his entrance). What happens when one person in a relationship is trying to change and the other resists? We’ll see.   ////but we hardly do!/////








Sept19   now ^^^

 veronica mars  thinking oh reminds of   jaime keeling   ~ jawline kristen bell hard maybe only as veronica      had also thought about rue! in euphoria  ie zendaya  now








clip August ____________________________                                     

Euphoria ….  







 … reddit    there to read re euphoria 
             not much for each epsd on primetimer forum!   and negative!    showing how ppl who are  ~more my demographic?  middle aged, maybe fairly mainstream, careers, kids  ~   are not   not wh?  not on it.   are out of it.  ~=poor taste? popculturally.     
 there are ppl 40s on euphoria subreddit, though, appreciating it and making sharp comments.   just not the ppl who are on primetimer for most part huh?    (who are the primetimer ppl?   roots in Dawsons Creek fandom! ?  nah, a lot of younger ppl now right.  tamer though.   reddit is subcultures ~  kinds of edge.   well and also just a much bigger huge wide net cast, in wh. ) 

They Had Us In the First Half |  Know Your Meme  
captions in which the first half of the text sounds good, but becomes unpleasant or distasteful in the second half.   /or vice versa   not more often ?   I guess in re GatesOpen sub.  or the original actually.  since: they had  us in the first half, then things turned in our favor! 
also been used as a title for multiple posts on Reddit featuring a story or caption that takes a dramatic turn towards the end  /y usage or tone can be pretty dffrnt. 
I

 When you're an honest man and they had you in the first half // I like th.  here calls it an "anti meme" ok .  just like, the actual situation depicted.  :)  not being applied as a comment on sth else. //   They Had Us In the First Half |  Know Your Meme  |       looked up after seeing on reddit/s/GatesOpenComeOnIn ~  nice sub  "Do I lift? Yeah I lift! I lift your spirits up! ..~ been missing you, let's get lunch"  someone there saying almost every post cld be reacted to as  "you had us in the first half, not gonna lie."  I guess bcs it's like There is a Gate. /first half./  And it's open!  hope you're on the way!   :)       // so expression here is like “you had us going…”  expecting sth else.  starting to have a reaction.  but then!    <3 br="">



I also see “lowkey”  “highkey” constantly now.  not just on reddit but I guess mostly.  so I just wasn’t reading comments by ~the kids~ much before this. 
heard and liked it in epsd The Chi.   kid about going to aquarium school trip  (had to work hard to fund raise for)  “Lowkey that was cool”  
    few mo ago, just watched part.           ((and for some the kids the first time out of the southside? why wld that be though?  bus $2   just not anyth in world th wld suggest going? nothing to invite ~).
> watch that epsd, scenes of kids on field trip. 







   
~bcs      Euphoria so good       feel like rvw  wh ever watched   ~   forget things.     remember rg saying wh if cld see evth you ever eaten. like, fascinating. I  think wh if cld see list ev show ever watched.  or book read ok but to me now show more int, as experiences, things in mind, where fr.  source  cadence  personality.  taken in.  traces left.   and shld be doable.  or nearly.  finite.   accessibly?   like not to include every single thing, childhood too (maybe  not so many more shows anyway.  Fame.  but I revisited that.  so cld count that now.  mainly I mean as current self.  since Chgo.  2004/2006?in earnest following fall premiere season.   then had in mind fvr:  Lost.  Life. VM.  24.        now top y still Deadwood  Rectify  Justified.   and: Leftovers.  Euphoria. 



                            cadence  “I mean:  …Yes.”     
also bcs   even more so bcs of recent cadence trying to place   feel like trying more or less comprehensive list   //right.  to hold.  lines to keep in mind.// 
bcs was thinking of  trying to place   had in mind:   “I mean:  …Yes.”   spoken by female char.  like w turn of head.  cld recall tone pretty closely.  vibe of character.  young woman.  maybe teen. smartish/skeptical.   PLL Spencer ? no  though  in cnnx recalling, a line also I have had in mind, to Hannah, about Caleb.  “He’s dark enough.” *)      said looking at someone, response to one other person, prob a guy.  int dynamic between them maybe.  some kind tension.  line of connection, what is there between.      turn of head like Boyd to Raylan in conversation I like so m, first epsd s3 I think “How much money Raylan?” *   but pretty sure was girl, more mainstream kind of setting.  veronica mars ?  close?  vibe ~  but, maybe verbal sparring, but sorta collaboratively, d n seem  like w Logan.  maybe Weevil.  and yes brings up another line in mind, mainly bcs also a yes, a form of affirmative answer, Veronica to weevil s3   “Oh, righhhhhht.” *   bcs she had interviewed him in class for project, so wrt how classmates wld know his name “Because you told them.”  
      cool found answer w ease when not looking  as soon as reminded of show.  You.   reminded incidentally, rdg sth else, actress ~ victoria peretti will play Love Quinn in s2 (looks like pretty good casting.  nb s2 no premiere date yet, not soon I guess d n see info re producing).   then easy, oh that’s wh was.  Beck to Joe, in bar, re Peach Salinger.    vibe w Joe d n seem like the int dynamic, but I guess w Peach sort of is.  the incipient vibe joe vs peach.   kind of like “He’s dark enough’ not w tension between spencer and hannah  but triangulated to Caleb.  an assessing.  y that kind of tension *assessing*   boyd to raylan.  spencer suggesting to hannah re caleb.   like as if raised eyebrows.   joe re peach, to beck. 
Joe:  “Like  J.D. ? Salinger.”  
Beck: “I mean:  …Yes.  but she  doesn’t like to talk about it…!  and she’s a sweetheart.  … her family is just kind of… You know?”  
Joe: “Whose isn’t?”    
//so here the charisma is Joe.  and Peach.  as characters.  Beck eh ~   but maybe here, and in earier scene out on street w Joe, works as offsetting his charismatic deliveries  “No, I remember.”   (“I guess I have a bland face.”)   “No, you’re not.”    in bar scene, I put the …s  she is sort of drawling, oh I guess on street took, bit drunken.  “but she’s a sweetheart…..”    so her cadence is compelling to me in wh stays in mind, I guess.  just, she is not very charismatically *sharp*.  right?  Joe is.  and Peach.  (Emily, actress Shae, fr PLL.  impressive.  might hv thought not espclly good actor, ppl said th re pll, at beginning anyway? beginner, least good.  Spencer, actress trojan, was always good. rt.  and maybe hannah too.  charisma.    ~ aria char not much of a showcase, maybe.  (lucy hale good. had been noticeably likable, fun to watch, in Privileged. wh there, ex of show I might forget! less so after revisiting streaming. older sister actress all the more an int char? good actress. wh has she done since then?)  and so maybe emily char also.  just not so charismatic.  kind of straight (no irony meant, in re char being gay).  turns out actress can convey totally more complicated *assessing* mind.  so m so as Peach th I hardly make cnnxn between the shows You and PLL  really not at all  though emily and peach same actress one of main chars.  prominent.  well, char Peach prominent.) 


EUPHORIA is so good
         …remembering other shows
so.  a list.   group maybe sort of genre more wrt assoc.  teen shows I’ve liked.   ~ 90210. gossip girl. pll. veronica mars.    oh: privileged. 
                                               *** wld not really put Euphoria here. !   production quality, vibe, wh show is doing.  is not ‘teen’ show.    not so m a distinction re audience.  also for young ppl it is about,    but ok maybe is sort of re audience   Euphoria   partly by necess bcs late night the 10pm slot even after BLL wh makes sense  bcs dark  explicit   but also  as is consistent w the explicit dark   the vibe is for older-young-ppl  maybe still in it  but been in it   looking back a bit (re hs for kids now early 20s.   ~    
    vs 90210  (and orig bh90210, and dawsons creek) gossip girl  pll  veronica mars
                                                              (vm has additional level ? layer of appeal ? why is th ?  production value sorta levels it down to the others  of wh gossip girl the most glossy   higher production value  (as seems, to me, not to do w knowledge discernmnt about)   but soapy storylines keep gg at teen show ish level      wh vm is the most not-only-on      bcs smart?  I guess just bcs smart  pll sort of kitschy-no, what word oh duh _campy_  campy-smart   (especially or notably as read by twopj)         vm straight up smart  even when storylines exaggerated like at end s1 s2 turns as one rvw or someone said fr thriller to horror   still the intelligence of the show is straight intelligence, like, just good.  is it th fair to say?  maybe bcs her intelligence and she is v m main char.  way the char written.  and her dad. and logan.  serious sadness there.  epsd he breaks down at hotel, re mom.    do gossip girl or pll have serious sadness   can imagine might make cry  ~  eh   ~ sort of despite the overall vibe of the show  ?   dunno not sure here  but maybe fair to say the vm has straight-fwdly more emotional resonance  (twopj can draw out the resonance fr the other shows.  campy d n preclude resonance.  oh right: Blair. leighton meester.  she w chuck.  cld move me.  and hannah w caleb.  still I think?  overall vm ~ more serious?  not exactly saying, but maybe also true to say, less soapy.  maybe that is somewh simpler th am letting it be, in th matter of it being mystery. (well pll too. ~  but ok look when pll goes horror or increasingly over the top, like mona in car w spencer end first A plotling ~ s2, d n seem like a marked temporary shift genre.  rt?  the over the top ness was always there.  as twop reads it, v intly in way over the top and daily. aspects girls lives.  teen girl life.  lipstick th care about and also horror, creepy men.   vm noir though.  in way more serious throughout. ?)
still  very much contrast over against Euphoria   
     can group:  90210  (and orig bh90210, and dawsons creek) gossip girl  pll  veronica mars   = = = skew down in teenishness, like to middle school age viewers.     adult viewers too esp vm  and to extent pll too  and I guess gossip girl   but appeal  vibe  is sorta like Seventeen magazine   like about being 17    appeal for 13yrlds
even 8-10yrlds.  a kind of glamour. wh feels glamorous young girlhood.  like the appeal of a  pkgd array of cosmetics  received in mail.   body shop.  benetton.   (were for me.)         (( ‘painted life’ just came to mind, but that is not a recurring assoc  not seem v meaninful  just a thought, now  the excitement of nail polish  eyeshadow  get to paint yourself  not just literally like as kid  but in some kind of socially culturally- done way. 
        this lyric coming to mind  and is th even correct?  painted ‘life’?  bcs just reading re listening vids Depeche Mode.  their song right?  and, a kind of coming circle, was looking at th bcs Euphoria  most recents epsd just watching s1e7 penult  rue saying when on opiates mind d n tell bladder release, so thrfr sit trying, “prob why so many addicts die on toilets”  visual cuts Judy Lenny Elvis  and  wait why did ggl of th (to see: judy garland, lenny bruce… and then just to see wh comes up if put all three, if get gll hits noting all died bathrm or anyth like th, not really, bcs elvis song judy is wh comes up.  then put ‘euphoria judy lenny elvis” and how did that get to depech mode   oh ok happened to bring up a hit to a treatment ctr  vistataos.com/seeking-euphoria-can-lead-to-a-killer-high   
                    wh oddly unwell written?  anyway ggl hit bcs:  ‘chasing the illusion that all pain and anguish can be erased by money, popularity and taking in mood altering drugs has been the demise of some of our most talented performers, from as long ago as Lenny Bruce, Elvis, Judy Garland, Jimi Hendrix, Janice Joplin..’ opens w: ‘Going to jail, a treatment center or dying are three of the promises that active addiction gives a person. In just the past 2 weeks Amy Winehouse, Teen Mom Jenelle Evans, rapper Big Boi are just a few of the bringing focus on the perils of life in drug addiction. There’s a better life in recovery.”  then I got int when was this writ, wh year Amy Winehouse died > looked her up  ~ incidental >   Lady Gaga    (struck me that maybe they look alike?  or th in A star is born, wh I d n feel good seeing so d n watch all, her face was fmlr to me, in way that now lkg pics of a winehouse seems same as hers sort of?)    who on amy w wko pg  ~ legacy?  is mentioned as crediting winehouse for ~  making easier unconventional woman singers? or sth   note th on lady gaga pg influence  amy w is not mentioned, like as influence.    she does mention Garbage  looked them up did recognize Stupid Girl, went to ytube listened to check was song I tht, yes, and fr there clicked sidebar Depeche Mode ‘enjoy the silence’ live in berlin, and fr there got a bit int in re depeche mode.  frankfurt 19what 1990? I was into Violator and had known in 80s? ppl are ppl  but have never read re never known about.  not even clear, like, at all german ?  no british.  synth-pop  especially popular germany?  electro synth pop.  also reminded OMD. few others.  Human League.  ..      
ok so not v clearly a coming circle, bcs not direct line, Euphoria taking me to Depeche Mode.  /// however, in fact: did.   judy lenny elvis > vistataos webpg > amy winehouse  > lady gaga > garbage > depeche mode.    Painted life  accurate lyric  one of songs listened to  ?    Enjoy the Silence.   ~no.    your own Personal  Jesus .  rach out and touch faith!    watched ytube  that lead singer Dvd Gahan  and guitarist also wow voice! martin gore  v  int rt?    talent   charisma. 
oh der.  Tainted Love.  !   wh  ggl  by Soft Cell.  not even fmlr as band name.   1981 yes. 

cld I make a chapbook of this.  this kind of.  dayislikewidewater    call it  “Via”    anyone might like to read  ?  or just as I do w chapbook  just like seeing  take int or just note of this writing being there.    not matter m to me to have audience?  but some appeal, wh?  to see if any ~saleability~  not actually saleability  not about sales   about chapbook of *any* int   can be ‘sold’ (very loose sense) as ‘writing’    ~ ‘poetry’ poiein making   sure   
worth  very loose sense   of transparent  just all this.     unarranged arranged  hyper arranged  not for  not for?  not for form.  not for existing form.   not to.   well ~ to syntax.  that is existing form. 
like that pink book fr semcoop th rdh also liked  title like sex economics sth    more life th  in appearance  the text   th anyth else I know of / hv  ? 

ask km think cld be?  any ‘worth’ ?   anyway wld hv submit rt  she can’t just say  ok will publish   though also submit  means for selection  by exactly her and one other person stephanie  rt? 









it will not emerge fr anyth on this stage
it will emerge fr sth    I am the one qualified to bring forth
Marianne Williamson  /bold!/  cnn democr debate  7/30/19


7/15


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7/16  Mon  grantthornton.co.uk/insights/what-does-the-future-hold-for-generation-alpha
via prvs link Gen Alpha wealthier// grantthornton.co.uk |  What does the future hold for Generation Alpha? | grantthornton.co.uk // start of Gen Alpha’s era year 2010 marked by launch of iPad and Instagram.  also the year that Facebook overtook Google as the most popular website. connected world Gen A will hv lived in entire life.

   via prvs link Gen Alpha wealthier//  What does the future hold for Generation Alpha? |  grantthornton.co.uk/insights/what-does-the-future-hold-for-generation-alpha
start of Gen Alpha’s era is marked by launch of iPad and Instagram [both in year 2010].  also the year that Facebook overtook Google as the most popular website /oh whoa just as a site  in re visits more than ggl !/  in the United States, a stage that few thought ‘faddish’ social media would gain.  connected world that Generation Alpha will have lived in for its entire life..     
The future these people will create will be built on the changes that we are experiencing today.     /  Generation Alpha are born to older parents, and will be more likely to be in single-child households /no/  smaller family units.  .   //    //  L E S  sorta more Gen Z bcs parents more Gen X ish   S (and me) on young side but hardly like millenials   and of crs D more squarely Gen X //     [Millenial]  parents believe that being a good parent and having a successful marriage is more important than having a high-paying career  / no.  (not very.) 

   GEN X wkp :   As adolescents and young adults, they were dubbed the "MTV Generation" (a reference to the music video channel). In the 1990s they were sometimes characterized as slackers, cynical and disaffected. Some of the cultural influences on Gen X youth were the musical genres of grunge and hip hop music, and independent films.      / yup yup 
In midlife, research describes them as active, happy, and achieving a work–life balance.   // well   y work-life is the guiding ideal   seems rt      vs more twd ‘life’  for gen z & alpha ?   work flexible   ~ not so m identity ?     espclly not  need be as ’career’ ? //
so th d sound like sorta in vein ~ becoming their parents  ~  in re going fr cynical to adjusted    so maybe rather just becoming more mainstr  ‘adult’  
(“happy” huh?   I can believe the research   and more or less wh I see   small sample ppl around me   and I guess how choose show selves on fbk   ( is gen z as into depicting their life on fbk   like family photos  must be some  but more varied?      “happy”  but was prozac nation rt?     so  it worked  ?   :)    ** seems notable  along w internet   how emotional health regarded   Gen X is generation first got antidepressants   but like young adults   whereas by Gen Z  avail pretty common!  
but y gen x prob not bcs medicated   just ~ grew up ~  
became like parents actually?   ~ or were a lot of parents hippies  ?   ~ younger end ? 
 baby boomers staid?   ~ 50s ~early 60s   wh we think each decade is often more the end that decade  early next?       so older gen x had ~square parents  ~ 
younger gen x  had  end 60S-70s parents    more hippie ish   not mine   (y sudie’s  ~ note she is older kid incdntlly  and I am younger 





via prvs linke Gen Alpha wealthier (Itht Lilo wld like)
here:  Globally, this generation will experience greater wealth and more material goods than previous generations.

via prvs linke Gen Alpha wealthier//  What does the future hold for Generation Alpha? |  grantthornton.co.uk/insights/what-does-the-future-hold-for-generation-alpha
start of Gen Alpha’s era is marked by launch of iPad and Instagram [both in year 2010].  also the year that Facebook overtook Google as the most popular website /oh whoa just as a site  in re visits more than ggl !/  in the United States, a stage that few thought ‘faddish’ social media would gain.  connected world that Generation Alpha will have lived in for its entire life..  
The future these people will create will be built on the changes that we are experiencing today.   … //always wh defines Gen.  and with respect to parents ~       // I am into idea of loink between every other Gen as parents-kids   more similar ?  more ~ related  ~ in how come up, influenced by, shaped  similar or over against   ////  
        Generation Alpha  /thought of as mostly kids of Millenials/  are born to older parents, and will be more likely to be in single-child households and smaller family units. 
      // so y I think L E S  sorta less Gen A   more Gen Z      parents much - ? - more Gen X ish    y  like we were there pre Internet and shaped by it becoming pervasive in our  S (and me young side) v early adulthood  (other Gen X  already older)  but hardly like millenials  (S especially not?  and well ofcrs D more squarely Gen X   see: /  Their parents believe that being a good parent and having a successful marriage is more important than having a high-paying career   //see, no.   if came down to it, sure, kids most imprtnt.   but career v imprtnt  and not sacrificing it  much (rt?) for kids //    and in the aftermath of the last great recession, their parents will experience a more fluid, changeable career path  //no.  





Mon 7/1

 lawsuit vs NC restroom bans // nb Hunter Schafer Sch of Arts HS //  Carcaño, et al. v. Cooper, et al   /2016/  |   aclu.com  American Civil Liberties Union  | lawsuit challenges a sweeping North Carolina law, House Bill 2 , which bans transgender people from accessing restrooms.. / page last update Apr19   ‘case update’ HB2 is Repealed and Replaced with Another Anti-Trans Law   MARCH 29, 2017  /    latest document Feb19 still being tried, now District Court //  six plaintiffs  total?  Hunter Sch + read re five others  

 ( Hunter Schafer is a 17-year-old young woman and high school junior at University of North Carolina School of the Arts High School in Winston-Salem. / oh cool UNC School of the Arts HS  no wonder talks re 'art practice'   likes seeing how she will next  'externalize artistic energies' )   /read re other (one of six?)  plaintiffs

Hunter was diagnosed with gender dysphoria in the ninth grade. By her sophomore year she was using the girls’ restroom and feminine pronouns, and that year was elected to the Queens Court.

Status: Filed
Related Issues   LGBT Nondiscrimination Protections   /ask Whit if can read re cases she worked on/       LGBT Rights     Transgender Rights









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Netflix's brand is volume * // thrfr wld make this wh is like bad network series ABC soap / 'What/If' Review - Tim Goodman  | Hollywood Reporter | Maybe you've been thinking lately, "If Netflix would only make an ABC soap opera that's dumb and predictable...   /   stars a miscast Renée Zellweger as Anne Montgomery, a venture capitalist ("born of jackals") who has a very familiar proposal for earnest Lisa Donovan (a misused Jane Levy)   ..   Lisa (and, to be emphatically clear, Levy deserves better than this) scoffs at the initial offer   ..   //   problem with What/If is that it's just a bad network series that's on Netflix, a thing that Netflix does /(d n explain why Zellwgr & Levy wld agree be in)/  mostly because its brand is volume  /ok int brand is volume  yes  like comparing az prime  (also hulu?)  wld tend to say  Netflix has MORE   so if only subscribe to one streaming service...
https://www.hollywoodreporter.com/review/what-1213451

              problem with What/If is that it's just a bad network series that's on Netflix, a thing that Netflix does more often than you might imagine, mostly because its brand is volume  /ok int brand is volume  yes  like comparing az prime  (also hulu?)  wld tend to say  Netflix has MORE  so if only subscribe to one streaming service...
 Netflix just overall has MORE    ~  and higher chance has whtvr movie you are thinking of?  

but az prime has int.   more foreign  (or more you wld notice, more featured..  higher chance of any *foreign* film you are looking for?)   
and az pr better origs overall ?  high productn quality?  high concept?     man in high castle.   patriot.    sneaky pete. ~    /wh besides man high castle are its other high profile??

so wh is az pr video brand 

Netflix volume.      also maybe:   movies, like movie rental   (as it began)  wh you wld hv gone to blockbuster to get ?  hmm.  does not get new movies though does it?  not for long time?  <<
    Az actually gets new movies fairly soon.  doesn’t it?   am I remembering recent right?  crazy rich asians    and high quality I wanted see:  Moonlight.  Florida Project. 
          Az more recent movies sooner? << 

    Netflix gets lots full series.  lots   ie volume. 
    Az does not, as much?  but Az gets the FX ones !!     Justified.  Mr Robot.  also Orphan Black, bbc.    ..   more pbs maybe ~
     .. Az more features british.  bbc amer.  also acorn have to add subscrip  but is point access and visible.  
                  bbc amer under umbrella along w channels sundance amc origs on netflix though? ~
    Az also features HBO  hv to add subscrip.  but again, is access and visible as option.  associated.   === goes twd brand quality yes.  FX hbo basic cable.  HBO.
    so yes:

Az quality.   ?      ~ relatedly?   I like bcs context !    most *informed*    thinking person’s streamer ?   while streaming, can see info.  on page can read reviews etc.   and can see listings for shows not avail prime free, see if avail purchase streaming  or as dvd.     also more ~  worldly   makes international avail, internationally 
     Netflix removes context  network not identified  even cut fr intros credits  always?  why? make generic  make ‘netflix’ the provider I guess.  and thrfr hbo fx not on board  << yeah? 
       took away reviews. 
      
    }  wh wld tim goodman say?   brand az pr.  brand hulu.  as over against netflix (volume. lots. has most.)    <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<

Hulu  I think brand is: TV.   :)   things airing now.   shows aired before, old, not golden age.  tv tv.     brand ~ accessible ?  mainstream  ?    tv.    ~ basic ~
    (does have some golden age  ?   maybe not..  Twin Peaks early golden. precursor.  still, tv.  (network rt?   Hulu d n have anyth not broadcast ?   oh I think basic cable  
         yeah like USA   I think right    wh on brand  ‘blue skies’ shows (was th just a tim goodman descrip?)    and TNT  that show Good ~  w girl downton abby   justified ish but ~ 
        Hulu is  /was started as? still is rt?/  partnership among broadcast channels  rt?   companies  umbrella   so also assoc basic cable channels
                    wh?  Disney (ABC ?)  Warner   Fox?   dunno wh company wh networks   / also:  Fox  no ?  not FX rt ?  why wld rights to az pr      
   does make origs aspire high quality?  handmaids tale —maybe only one of note?   wh others?  another wh won Emmys?            the path ~not high quality  but had aaron paul. 
  
~
hulu basic
az premium
netflix all sort 






in cnnxn above, Network brand is volume/most/more/all/acrossboardgenre
Netflix orders two female-led soapy romance dramas as it tries Hallmark-style programs

Netflix order Steel Sweet Magnolias    (oh not Steel   wondered why no one mentioning the movie but only book series (on wh I figured oh movie must hv bn based    about three friends etc

https://www.primetimer.com/item/Netflix-orders-two-female-led-soapy-romance-dramas-as-it-tries-Hallmark-style-programs-9YS2GZ   tvtattle sxn

https://www.hollywoodreporter.com/live-feed/netflix-targets-hallmark-pair-romance-drama-series-orders-1147537    Woods’ 11-book series that launched in 2007 with Stealing Home. The 10-episode drama centers on three South Carolina women, best friends since high school, as they shepherd each other through the complexities of romance, career and family. Sheryl J. Anderson (Hallmark’s When Calls the Heart, A Summer to Remember) will serve as showrunner…
as Netflix continues to shake up the industry one genre at a time. After entering the scripted originals space with House of Cards, the streamer aggressively pursued (and paid handsomely) for stand-up comedy specials, animation and now romance dramas as it looks to become a one-stop shop in multiple genres.




















Logos like the CBS eye and the NBC peacock have the benefit of decades of brand awareness

“an incredible positive association with the peacock that actually has a halo effect on our new content”

Schweitzer [cbs marketing]  still believes that ultimately it’s the show’s brand that matters most. “Netflix is a supermarket,” he said. “You go down the aisle, see something you like and grab it… The source of where it comes from is a matter of trust and a matter of identification. But no one is saying, ‘What is on ABC or NBC or CBS tonight?’ They’re saying, ‘When is [show name]  on?'”









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early June   before florida drove down ~ 16th? June  sunday    flew back Fri 6/28  oh so I stayed y ok 12 days.. 
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"Oh, I bet she's a robOH MY GOODNESS" 

I was like "Oh, cool, a Shadowrun-type show?" and then he said the line "Someone real," and I was like "Oh, I bet she's a robOH MY GOODNESS"    // :)
https://dcmetrotheaterarts.com/2016/04/23/c-s-lewis-onstage-reluctant-convert/



   early June to do also incl  re packing fla clothes ~
phone  photos 
notes  to dlww   or  evernote     like     fr below tele-v                 also Deadwood critics collect in a post





hmm 6/28 after back fr fla crescent beach  start computer  only ~ 9.81 gb   ok  saved tabs frfx chrome..

11gb free   6/8/19 11.06 gb   cool    //   2018? ~ 14gb free ...  12.72 gb after browsers open a while.    10/14/2018       still 12.7 after restore big frfx session ?  looks like           ooh after restart 13.84   even though upon restart  (re) opened iPhoto   :) wh opened for first in looooong time yesterday  said required update, said not enough storage, at last need 6gb, but I hit enter by mistake and then it WORKED!  :)  !!      //5/2/2019 restart cmptr still only 7.55 gb.  th is after opening frfx so maybe





MS        CIS Clinically Isolated Syndrome  eg optical neuritis
*** ah, nice!!!  almost one in five remained "CIS only" 50 years after their attack.  //  Clinically isolated syndrome: how many people never progress to MS?  |   This research followed 246 people in Sweden who had an episode of neurological symptoms which lead to a diagnosis of clinically isolated syndrome (CIS). Most went on to be diagnosed with MS but almost one in five remained "CIS only" 50 years after their attack.  The researchers observed that, if someone had not converted from CIS to clinically definite MS after 25 years, there was almost no risk that they would convert at a later date.    :)     age 36 + 25 = age 61   ///  he outcome was better for people whose first attack was optic neuritis as almost a third (30%) remained "CIS only" compared with 13% of those with other symptoms.   :)










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5/6 or9  /2019
>>  theresa duncan  .. ha hamann .. //  just to note assoc my mind   by way of though not so m similar in mind w  heather armstrong   (dooce eh d n like name)  just came on by a sidebar  article re.       //  assoc is?   theresa duncan  reading round web re     wh?      blonde mysterious web persona .    wit staircase m more ~ soph? esoteric?  (m more of int to me)   and the mystery is death   w dooce it's not mystery  just  ~ intrigue  pedestrian re divorce wh happened btwn she & husband jon  bcs unexpected to and felt personally known by readers/   ///  then assoc to ha hamann fr theresa duncan seems wld int her  and the h names  / also, fr name, ‘heather’  writer on web    tht of tv critic [slate]  that twopj liked?  but then I d n find immedly find very my, wh she wrote re tv?  =  Heather Havrilesky   now rdg her column Ask Polly [thecut nymag]  I do like v m how bold!! ……  


……  now today JUNE 6/6/19
  (so, about tv she was not articulating what I already thought.  that’s ok.  (do I, if look now without expecting find my thought articulated, find wh she does say insightful  interesting?  (do I want to live there?) ) )  (alan sepinwall I experienced  not saying wh I thought   right?   but generally likable   pleasant to read   some interesting remarks?  if not sharp exactly-it ?  (not sure.  don’t recall well enough how m and in wh regard appreciate wh he says.  I do feel he is agreeable, pleasant, and fairly smart.  (cf / vs    mo ryan seemed nice person but never my  ?  too m presenting pt of view th seemed  wh   common?  common among smartish ppl, I mean.  less of it to me, maybe, than common overall, different perspective.  common to the demogr I am around.  I guess.  not sure.       sth like th.     not m of int.  I d n go to read.  huh d n look re deadwood   did she write about   maybe willl look >>>  where is she now I mean critic under wh auspices

//     :)  hulu auspices   hulu   it’s like tv on demand if wh you demand if Wings repeats   :)    <  cigar smoking ~ dog right?     who is person  I d n recall    show on hulu (yeah)   //

alan sepinwall  now rolling stone   chief   tv   critic?    I only just learned when re deadwood.     had gone fr his ~ new jersey  ledger   where (yes still) was when I got on (board  w tv reading)  and  outstanding fr that newspaper position?  had blog   v popular  right?  blogspot  right?  sepinwall.blogspot     so then….  left the ledger  went to Hitfix    w dan fienberg   ? 
did he go fr hitfix  to rolling stone
   ( meanwhile or earlier rt?  his friend who was w him at starting up of hitfix  dan fienberg   went to  thr  the hollywood review  is th rt? 
 where tim goodman

tim goodman  ~ not my but not  not-my  ?  eh way to say  but accurate maybe   not read and find own thoughts   but find consistent w ~  and of interest   sharp      maybe too negative not re tv but generally  about his job  blogging as extra work  wh hickcity posted about  so th may be why I notice    and now wh looked at   bcs deadwood   not negative was it  but a lot re ranking   re wrt Game of Thrones  whether on ~fabled~ hall of greats  top ten    int enough as way to discuss  assess  but a bit far (tedious?) labored by him ~  
his top five    I think he said:  The Wire  The Sopranos  Breaking Bad  Mad Men  and   ah  The Americans   ok yes
wh wld I watch again   The Wire
Brkg Bad ok mainly first two seasons  short 2nd season  and third re Gus   wh brings in Better Call Saul  in end might overall leave me feeling all the more positive
/ I have not yet felt int enough to watch Sopranos   
/ I d n love Mad Men     well made ~  but not my liking ~ bcs about surfaces?  cracking surfaces  but still not about under   ~  maybe    surfaces advertising    not about depth ~revealed   ~ only as disrupts surface   
The Americans  yes great top show  agree.  and I liked.  not super int to watch again but yeah wld be into if walked into a room where was on. 
Deadwood I will  am int to   watch   again  more
so my most of int  :
The Wire   s1 and s2 most   s1 great   s2  I actually liked a lot  wanted more like   s3 not as m? politics s4 kids cool  but still s1 and s2 my liking 
Deadwood   fvr   if I can have one tv show th I get to watch  thr life  wld I choose th?  truly?  I think maybe.    (unless sth else not as good but fun int engaging hs veronica mars   for logan   ie for someone I just like   ~ but no I’d choose deadwood   OH WAIT   I might choose JUSTIFIED       also  Rectify s1     or at least epsd 1 
maybe Deadwood  overall on desert island most able play dialogue and think about.  smart. 
Justified wld be bcs actually all the more entertaining.   but desert island, life/death, I’l go with Deadwood. 
Rectify for closest to me.  sad.  beginning.   / oh remember   preacher fr Deadwood   this is his show.     go w Deadwood still  on desert island. 

also up there not my desert island pick but top
 maybe yes  Game of Thrones  s1  “Call the banners boy “   those first three episodes seemed so  ~ perfect    to me   ~ like  poem

ok so yes my fvr as had arranged in my mind   yes right: 
Deadwood  Justified  Rectify
.. GoT s1 

early days  VMars Life 24
VMars was fun  I liked  I like HS  I liked Logan a lot 
Life I liked charlie crews tilting his head  inquisitive    /has lessened a bit seeing him in other roles     first Homeland int beginning  but d n play out int?   Billions maybe, do want look at /but he just appeared to much elsewhere as damian lewis  I ~preferred  less ~interference  with sense of him in Life   “no you can’t”  re “I can Imagine” fr cdhristina hendricks char about him on orange farm saying he wants light
24 was just compelling   sitting by window in chgo  smoking     //how many lives have time to feel   in a human life  ?
ohhhh right  was thinking a fourth   ofcrs  LOST
VMars  Life  24  Lost
Lost gets top inclusion.   even above.   s1  for entertainment  /and community, the speculation.  read re GoT but I say more so Lost.  for shared thinking about.  imagining.  I first watched after seeing  in EW ? Ent Weekly  mention  ~ “No other show does wh Lost does every week”     I thought What ?   What does it do ???   still not sure  but might say “blow your mind”    this EW  I think   mention   was after s3 ending  They got off the island !?   “We have to go back……”      and later  The plane comes back together!? 
Lost was exciting.   maybe that is it. 

oh and btw  Six Feet Under  
    /  thinking  Lost great story?  well   was the ending?  ~   I think ok but no the ending d n specifically   well wait   it was so weird and fun right?  they got the island heebie jeebie rememberings   pretty What!     so it was ok    
thinking re good endings  Six Feet Under  .   recap twop nice guy who did recaps  “Everybody Dies.”     “When this show says the end, it really..” 
as a whole show six seasons, more like a soap  ~  just, characters.  things happening.   (is that also true re Sopranos?   <<< hmm, of int to me as a qstn
so, likeable.  but I guess no not   like  thematically  great?   life / death   those openings were cool.   I wld watch again.    sort of int? th the deaths shown were most int, the life was ~ordinary.  (as is? ~ eh.)   bcs not especially into any of the characters.  no one I just wanted to watch   wait   Billy    maybe   jeremy sisco     oh and david  michael c hall    so, good.  not great. 

so for now sum
Deadwood   Justified   Rectify
Lost
VMars 
Life.   Six Feet Under. 


for comedies  wh I guess just not as ~’essential’ to me  ~ cld sort of take or leave  ?  yeah so yeah not ‘essential’  not distinctly want ‘take’   but if I am taking, I like:
Always Sunny
Eastbound & Down     / Vice ~  no  but cool. 



^^^^  tele-v    6/6/19
got into overall by way of re tv critics   who I used to   where now     havrilesky  who I d n used to  but knew of    then in re how m was to my mind my    alan sepinwall   tim goodman 
and the one I d n yet say   last and best
James Poniewozik    who yes my  not in deep close way   just evth (seems) he says I think  or cld think    just always smart reasonable  in way my mind agrees with 
I like him a lot   and so   pleased  he moved   fr Time  where I really liked my fvr  Tuned In blog  to NYTimes  wh rt  is (still) *the* publication.   the top.   and he is head tv critic.  good on. 


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chrome bkmrk  fr some months back   

(now 5/6/19 pasted just to see bcs so long….._

This idea that everyone else has that you go to bed, you go to sleep, and you wake up after you sleep some large number of hours  | Fran Lebowitz …   | W Magazine |     //re television  -people now think it’s like a requirement. I have to go, I have 75 episodes of such and such I have to watch. I’m not saying these shows are not good, I’m just saying maybe if I was three years old and I imagined I had this amount of time ahead of me, I might start pursuing it.          // -do y hv record player?   -No. I have what at the time was an incredibly modern thing, /y when I was 16 thinking how wld hv for long time  bcs cds new thing  ~ ?  tapes old //  I forget what it’s called. Bose makes it and it has a radio and a CD player. A boombox? Well, it’s not a boombox, it’s very tasteful. [Laughs.] It was after the boombox but before whatever they have now. / :) me too!  a small stereo? /       //  -last thing do before go to bed?    -I have to tell you, mostly I just try to figure out when the construction is starting in the morning. [Laughs.] I have horrible insomnia. This idea that everyone else has that you go to bed, you go to sleep, and you wake up after you sleep some large number of hours — this doesn’t exist for me. **   -Aw. How long has it been going on for?  -My whole life.   -The construction, I mean.   -Oh, the construction? [Laughs.] Also my whole life. Let me assure you: I could go to sleep — if that would be possible — in the middle of the Gobi Desert, and I would wake up to ConEdison. They would follow me there. [Laughs.] There is a construction site without question that follows me around the world.

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5/9/19 again just looking at chrome bkmrk  (on way to organizing pages just bkmrkd 


Instgr: My life is a party.  Fbk: My life turned out great!   Twitter: We're all going to die.   //y * ~ why I smtms int twitter. also bcs not so m re pics. /and y fbk ~ sudie  ~hmm my generatn  when opened up (fr cllg students) ~2007 ish we were ~ 30   married, kids, want to show?  /hmm 30s age of pride? or shame  wh is the erikson stage   || 
  Mikel_Jollett:  “ Instagram: My life is a party.  Snapchat: My life is a quirky tv show.  Facebook: My life turned out great!  Twitter: We're all going to die. “   ////  //dunno re instagr just ppl posting pics       like  food? travel or new baby.  party?   if look at a lot of instagr see a lot of like ppl drinking on sailboat?    ~  less contextualized direct present ‘self’  than fbk.  Fbk: Here’s me. /w pride: doing pretty well!/  Tw: Here’s wh I say. /w critical mind: things d n seem good/  Instagr: Look at this. /w enjoyment: cool, right?/  //via: lkg at this twitter I think via Emmy Rossum (re leaving Shameless end of this year)

//dunno re instagr just ppl posting pics       like  food? travel or new baby.  party?   if look at a lot of instagr see a lot of like ppl drinking on sailboat?
         ~  often or can be less about direct present ‘self’  than fbk   ~ 
                all about self    twitter ~  about things you say = wh you think.   I want to say this.  tell you this. 
                                                instagr about pics you show = what you see?    sights.  travel.  food.  I want to show you this. 
                            fbk also w photos but more as if know you.  I want to relay this about my life to you. 



 fbk: Here’s me.  tw: Here’s wh I say. instagr:  Look at this.    // there, yes   (at least, I like that formulation.      and so
         Here’s me tends be w pride. 
    Here’s wh I say   tends to be ~ downbeat  ( ~ bcs things are not good?). 
    Look at this   tends to be (showing sth wh is) cool.  

Fbk: Here’s me. /so, w pride./  Tw: Here’s wh I say. /things d n seem good./  Instagr: Look at this. /cool, right?/    

Fbk: Here’s me. /w pride: doing pretty well!//   Tw: Here’s wh I say. /w critical mind: things d n seem good.//  Instagr: Look at this. /w enjoyment:  icool, right?/





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int wh platform becomes.
wh difference makes.  

might say has a character, who made it, early community, history.  yeah but also  I am int in   how it works  how interface  relates  to  (how used, of crs)   what within broader use the specific use tends twd   wh feels like.    wh it feels like is happening there.   (“What show is this?”  jack on will & grace.)







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30s age of pride? or shame  wh is the erikson stage





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I Am the Night - wkp |   jan19  tnt 6 eps  /  ///nb!  not same as!  Dead to me  Netflx  May19  ~sort thought had hrd of, this. no.  new. d n know of.  Dead to me has linda cardellini christina applegate..// vs this is girl lkg birthmother hist to black dahlia ..sep17  announced  Chris Pine play Jay Singletary in  six-ep drama, One Day She'll Darken  /orig name/  Fauna Hodel, a young girl who was given up by her birth mother, sets out to uncover  ... gynecologist involved in the legendary Black Dahlia slaying.






……………………………………………………….    5/6 back on
https://twitter.com/Mikel_Jollett

only seeing bcs that twitter bkmrk above,  that guy today has retw:

@PeteButtigieg     1h
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A woman has enough to deal with when it comes to her health care without also having to worry about male politicians telling her what she ought to do with her body. Georgia’s abortion ban is a cruel attack on women’s autonomy and freedom  — one that we must continue to resist.


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https://slate.com/news-and-politics/2019/05/hb-481-georgia-law-criminalizes-abortion-subjects-women-to-life-in-prison.html


On Tuesday, Georgia Republican Gov. Brian Kemp signed a “fetal heartbeat” bill that seeks to outlaw abortion after about six weeks. The measure, HB 481, is the most extreme abortion ban in the country—not just because it would impose severe limitations on women’s reproductive rights, but also because it would subject women who get illegal abortions to life imprisonment and the death penalty.
The primary purpose of HB 481 is to prohibit doctors from terminating any pregnancy after they can detect “embryonic or fetal cardiac activity,” which typically occurs at six weeks’ gestation. But the bill does far more than that. In one sweeping provision, it declares that “unborn children are a class of living, distinct person” that deserves “full legal recognition.” Thus, Georgia law must “recognize unborn children as natural persons”—not just for the purposes of abortion, but as a legal rule.
This radical revision of Georgia law is quite deliberate: The bill confirms that fetuses “shall be included in population based determinations” from now on, because they are legally humans, and residents of the state. But it is not clear whether the bill’s drafters contemplated the more dramatic consequences of granting legal personhood to fetuses. For instance, as Georgia appellate attorney Andrew Fleischman has pointed out, the moment this bill takes effect on Jan. 1, 2020, the state will be illegally holding thousands of citizens in jail without bond. That’s because, under HB 481, pregnant inmates’ fetuses have independent rights—including the right to due process. Can a juvenile attorney represent an inmate’s fetus and demand its release? If not, why? It is an egregious due process violation to punish one human for the crimes of another. If an inmate’s fetus is a human, how can Georgia lawfully detain it for a crime it did not commit?

For now, Supreme Court precedent protecting women’s reproductive rights should bar such prosecutions—and indeed, require the invalidation of HB 481. But the court’s conservative majority may be on the verge of dismantling Roe v. Wade.

Even women who seek lawful abortions out of state may not escape punishment. If a Georgia resident plans to travel elsewhere to obtain an abortion, she may be charged with conspiracy to commit murder, punishable by 10 years’ imprisonment


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screwtape letters play 

6/6/19 looking up re screwtape letters…

*  joy, play, the joke proper, and - not good - flippancy /y!!! // glib.  / Stephen Colbert's Witness | Think Christian   |     
summarizing C. S. Lewis, who outlines four different sources of laughter in The Screwtape Letters. The first three—joy, play, and the joke proper—are all good things. A fourth, however, is what Colbert/Lewis classifies as “flippancy.” In this context, people don’t actually make jokes but simply talk about serious subjects in a way that already assumes there is a ridiculous side to things. This flippancy distances people, does not increase affection ..   /y!  flippancy = talking about serious subjects in way assumes ridiculous aspect   /y! glib. dripping.  (even jon  stewart   on daily show kind of like this..    he is good natured  ~    however preaching to choir  only      /  it's not thoughtful    or questioning   (or, manifestly, respectful of other point of view, how others might see differently.)  





https://www.coursehero.com/lit/The-Screwtape-Letters/chapters-26-27-summary/
this is good, int  re dynamics in couple (marriage..) // The Screwtape Letters Chapters 26 27 Summary - Course Hero   |  the term "charity" and its definition in the patient's mind. Instead of "charity," he must think about "unselfishness." Instead of "surrendering benefits ... that others may be happy," he must think of being unselfish in forgoing those benefits.  Another useful tool Screwtape recommends is the different viewpoints about unselfishness held by women and men. Women view unselfishness as "taking trouble for others." Men view it as "not giving trouble to others." As a result, they are bound to misunderstand each other's acts of unselfishness, with the result that "each sex ... can and does regard the other as radically selfish."    ...     "the Generous Conflict Illusion."  Each side stubbornly tries to outdo the other in self-righteous unselfishness to the point of resentment and a full-out quarrel. A flood of bitterness pent up over the years then flows. Both sides feel blameless as well as ill-used and manipulated by the other's unselfishness.    //looked this up bcs int in one line summary prvs pgmrk Diabolical Ventril:  Sow seeds of “unselfishness” during his courtship.   //I like not obvs.  subtle.    .. also here chp 27re prayer  /my rephrasing to positive/  distraction will not make less devout, if person is confessing that distraction to God.  here, says better person ignore any problem /failure/ bcs once presents to God in prayer, grows closer to God.. 






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* in 1998 — or at least during some variant of "The Rachel"  
* giant jug Minute Maid orange juice   doing sth so incorrectly with so m confidence  (unapologetically   / I really pause d n get past prefer not use ‘confidence’ in way d n at all involve etymol wh in word  confiding.  

https://jodi.substack.com/p/how-to-make-an-old-fashioned-the    How to Make an Old Fashioned the Old-Fashioned Way   |  The video in question appears to have been made in 1998 — or at least * during some variant of "The Rachel" * //
//  via  ggl recap BLL >  The Decider  BLL recap by Jodi Walker  (ok nothing to remark but did click name to go to other BLL recap see wh else)  > her site jodi.substack newsletter but menu > archives = public posts ( ~ free letters)  //      JaNee drink tutorial videos incl "How to Make a Bloody Mary," wh has prominently lineup ingredients a gallon of orange juice  that giant jug of Minute Maid symbol re watching JaNee make a cocktail.   To see someone do something so incorrectly  with so much confidence  / :)  * Minute Maid orange juice is ex? doing orange juice so incorrectly  *  haha (but maybe jodi just means th shld not be oj in bloody mary  y prob    otherwise somewh subtle but  I hope  maybe she does mean  minute maid makes incorrect orange juice, unapologetically // can be inspirational. There are so many things I don’t know how to do, but watching JaNee makes me think, I guess I could just  do them?
To hear a person say "3 ounces of bourbon" and then watch her fill a pint glass with Jim Beam
the wardrobe, hairstyle, and face of Elisha Cuthbert in The Girl Next Door [ed. note: a niche reference that is dead on the money].  /huh. sth yesterday last night took me by this movie  (I remember seeing mention re timothy olyphant also.. ) but I can not figure fr lkg my history wh was via. 
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genderfogblog:  My illustration of gender as a “spectrum.”   //  :)
tuberous breast transgender - Ggl | Differences in Chest Measurements between the Cis-female and ... March 13, 2019  .... that the trans breast is phenotypically similar to a mildly tuberous breast, which ... // < that is wh I wondered about.  read forum trans women re breast dvlopmnt (on hormones)
tuberous breast fat [grafting] transfer |  Abstract. Introduction: Tuberous breast is a rare malformation that has negative physical and psychological impacts during puberty.    ..  Fat Grafting Technique, A Paradigm Shift in the Treatment of Tuberous Breast    World J Plast Surg. 2018 Jan
Differences in Chest Measurements between the Cis-female and and Trans-female Chest Exposed to Estrogen and Its Implications for Breast Augmentation  |  Plastic and Reconstructive Surgery – Global Open: March 2019  |  Gender confirming primary breast augmentation is becoming more common.   * hese observations suggest that the trans breast is phenotypically similar to a mildly tuberous breast, which is perhaps consistent with arrested development between Tanner stages 2 and 4   << tuberous breast  arrested dvlpmnt ? 
Breast disorders in the pediatric and adolescent patient.   Templeman C, Hertweck SP.   Obstet Gynecol Clin North Am. 2000;27:19–34.
arrested development tuberous breast - Google Search
Due to arrested development caused by a lack of progesterone, my breasts never flourished far beyond the “bud” stage. My congenital condition is called Tuberous Breast Deformity (TBD) because of their somewhat elongated and tubular shape. ... Tuberous breasts aren't your typical small-breasted beast.
Came home from work to find this : CatsAreAssholes
cat   -Look at those pupils constrict.   Strange things happen on sheet washing day. : Unexpected
Miss Mango holds her foot like this until it gets scratches. She definitely can't hold it up naturally. Haha! : Chonkers
It’s actually the truth  [ A different version of you exists in the minds of everyone who knows who you are. - @thought]  : technicallythetruth  |  Is this really, technically, true? Like, from a technical standpoint.
(see nxt pgmrk) // 4 seasons later..... : TVDetails  |  -My all time favorite detail in Futurama is that Nibbler's shadow was in the very first episode but it wasn't revealed until I think the 4th season that he was thebone who pushed Fry into the cryogenic freezing chamber   --Also known as "the most frequently cited and well-known detail in Futurama"    --"...which is always rebutted in the comments but continues to be cited"   --This one is so old that I remember like a ten year old thread where someone actually researched into seeking out a VHS copy recorded from the original broadcast to confirm this had not been added to the DVD release. I'm 99% positive it was confirmed as in the original broadcast.      --This has been discussed in detail and many times. I found confirmation it was in the original within a minute of searching. Here is another comment that pretty much settled it.
(see prvs pgmrk)// **  --Holy shit. You did it //  In Futurama s1 E1 which aired in 1999, you can see Nibblers shadow under Fry’s chair. It wouldn’t be revealed that Nibbler pushed Fry into the Cryo-genic chamber until season 4 which aired 4 years later. : TVDetails   |  -..- in case you need extra proof this was the original airing, the credits advertises next weeks new episode (the Pilot aired March 28, 1999, episode 2 "The Series Has Landed" aired April 4, 1999). And the beginning of episode 2 has the KDVR Denver watermark)  --This a very impressive level to of reddit comment right here, my dude. You just settle that debate so succinctly
When you're an honest man and they had you in the first half // I like th.  here calls it an "anti meme" ok .  just like, the actual situation depicted.  :)  not being applied as a comment on sth else. //   They Had Us In the First Half I'm not gonna lie | Know Your Meme  |       looked up after seeing on reddit/s/GatesOpenComeOnIn ~  nice sub  "Do I lift? Yeah I lift! I lift your spirits up! ..~ been missing you, let's get lunch"  someone there saying almost every post cld be reacted to as  "you had us in the first half, not gonna lie."  I guess bcs it's like There is a Gate. /first half./  And it's open!  hope you're on the way!   :)    
*breathes violently* : memes |  You have ~ 3-5 min to live, but every time you breathe it resets. 
preet on Twitter: "some of y’all never converted youtube music videos to mp3 files and it shows"
the good bean on Twitter: "One time I cried so much when I couldn’t get the book I wanted that my teacher bought me it and that’s when I learned about emotional manipulation… https://t.co/CDH2N5fUIK"
Bitch I bought a bendy pencil.  "Those kids that brought $40 in 2nd grade and had the audacity to ask you what you bought when you were back in the classroom. Bitch I bought a bendy pencil.    Dirkpetasprite^2 | Tin on Twitter:
 "Boy I low key used my lunch money, you know I came from the bottom… "
Labrinth & Zendaya – All For Us (Euphoria) (Piano Version) by MUSICHELP
HBO's Euphoria
Zendaya is the best Actress to ever come out of Disney. I've never cried to a TV show before but this scene hit home. : euphoria
It’s probably quite obvious to everyone, but these two were the absolute standout performers of the season. These scenes will definitely stick with me : euphoria
Some thoughts on the last scene of the season [long post] : euphoria
* Zendaya dancing // Nobody:  ___   Everyone in this sub   [Zendaya dancing] : : euphoria
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'Euphoria' Season Finale Explained | Hollywood Reporter
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HBO: "Hold my beer"  // Netflix: "13ReasonsWhy is a raw teen drama about drugs and sex unlike anything you've ever seen before."  //Euphoria: S1 E1 "Pilot"  |  .
Euphoria: S1 E1 "Pilot"   -her coughing whenever she opened the medicine cabinet made me laugh but then made me sad bc of how familiar it was   -Why did she cough?  -To hide the noise of the cabinet opening.
"Well I don't want to blame it all on 9/11" //   Rue’s life in a nutshell: : euphoria  Arr Dev -Really When did that start?  -Tobias: Well I don't want to blame it all on 9/11, but it certainly didn't help.//  :)
** the babies (16-19yrlds) started to walk into the rooms of recovery // I've been sober for 10 years. 46. huge fan. : euphoria | About 7 years ago [ ~ 2012 ] the babies started to walk into the rooms of recovery where I live. ..When the babies (16 to 19-year-olds) started coming into the rooms of the 12 step program I'm a member of, I thought to myself "You're not done, there's no way you belong here, you've never had a legal drink. You're not a real addict just because your parents found you with some pills. Come back when you hit bottom." But then they started to talk about... Not only have these babies experienced lows that even the most seasoned alcoholic and addict haven't experienced; the morbidly depressing events they've experienced in their addiction have happened in an incredibly short of amount of time. Most addicts have a story that spans decades. My own story of alcoholism spans 12 years. These kids coming into recovery have been out only a handful of years before the despair of their addiction brings them to death's door. It's humbling and terrifying. Some will celebrate a year of sobriety before they're ever 21. -Got clean at 18 and am now 25, can confirm
adventure time princess & vampire girl // jules  rue  This has probably been posted before but it’s too good not to repost : euphoria   | -They’re two characters from adventure time a princess (the left) who is colorful and eccentric, and a vampire (the right) who is dark and gloomy. And iirc they’re in a relationship together
they released THE SONG! : euphoria | -i’m so glad this show and song exist   -  -In the words of Rue: I'm soooo happy   -ys ago Ah man I can’t wait for the full soundtrack. There’s still a few other tracks I really want. Such amazing work by Labrinth.
more personal and simplistic, so it’s much easier// Discord watch Party starts @ 9:00 Sunday CST Night Please upvote to keep this message seen. : euphoria |  what Discord is, it’s a chat platform created a few years ago with the aim to bring a better chat client for gamers that isn’t extremely resource heavy. People create servers to build a community around a mutual interest, which is why subreddit communities began using it. Discord can be even better than Reddit sometimes. It feels more personal and simplistic, so it’s much easier to connect with the person on the other end of the screen through Discord, because it’s instant messaging and not a post on a thread that users may take longer to respond. In a nutshell, it’s a live action Reddit.
discordapp channel #general  // m eu phoria    //  m   (two spaces)   eu phoria      m  eu phoria    //    -i think he's just insecure and really did ... like her, unless of course he's just ragebaiting all the trans girls his dad sleeps with :shrug: which is possible bcs he had like.... a lot of dic pics on his phone
ytube: 'Euphoria' Star Jacob Elordi Breaks Down Psychology of Nate, Teases Scenes With Zendaya | In Studio - YouTube
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Spotify – EUPHORIA HBO SOUNDTRACK Original Soundtrack with Zendaya and Drake
What So Not & Skrillex - Goh (feat. KLP) by What So Not
“Euphoria/Stuntin’ Like My Daddy/Vibes” by Labrinth - Song Meanings and Facts
Labrinth - *Feel Something   | Official Micaro
-i LEGIT call it Nate’s theme too!  :53 // euphoria | official music by labrinth - visualizer (season 1 episode 4) | HBO - YouTube  |   -0:53 a similar version of what I call “Nate’s Theme” is playing. Has the more subtle version been released yet?    --LEGIT call it Nate’s theme too!  // :) //  And its my favorite on the score.    / me too ~  "player player put the money on the table"
euphoria official soundtrack | official music by labrinth by Lee Woods | Free Listening on SoundCloud |  -Whats the song called that starts at 0:52? Posted 15 days ago15 days ago Lee Woods at 0:53: @maya-torres-992901381 i wish i knew cuz it sounds so good. lemme know if you find it ;)
Drawing of Rue i just finished. Such a great show! : euphoria
***  Zendaya dancing // Nobody: Everyone in this sub: : euphoria
What an Emmy looks like [Rue at Fez's door]   What a Grammy looks like  'All for Us - Labrinth, Zendaya   Zendaya is the best Actress to ever come out of Disney. I've never cried to a TV show before but this scene hit home. : euphoria
Me: “I love this song...I need it on constant rotation “. Labrinth: “No.” : euphoria  |  -I read from Labrinth's Twitter that it's HBO that has the rights to release the tracks specifically made for the show. Mount Everest was a song Labrinth created before scoring Euphoria so that's why that one is out.    -It’s like TAKE MY MONEY ALREADY. Honestly.
Me getting ready to marry Fez at any given moment ignoring the fact that he's a whole ass drug dealer   [Homer Simpson in wedding dress]   Saw this on Tumblr. This is me. : euphoria
Character Names Meaning : euphoria  | Rue - Regret.  Maddy - Maiden; young unmarried woman.    Jules - Youthful, soft.   Lexi - Defender of man.   /nice.       ..   Cassie - Prophetess / or, more literally greek: shining on men  wh fits.       kat or katherine pure  / eh ~ how fit?  (also in show kinda easy to forget her name. think of actress name.  
jules at the party : euphoria
SHOW LOVE TO LABYRINTH   : euphoria  |   -hbo: shows done!! howd u like it??? everyone: DROP THE OST PLEASE
This is the fez angel. He brings good fortune and protection against the white devil nate Jacobs. Respond with “ that’ll be 5.75 playboy” to stay protected and receive your fortune. : euphoria
UK skins //  //  Can't top it : euphoria  -just don't think I would like it as much as Euphoria level 5 gclfwcng 1 point · 4 hours ago I think you will. Pretty much the uk version of euphoria
"Jules" - Valids , Christofe Young , digital 2019 [ taken from r/Art    /where 13.1k upvotes!  ] : euphoria    r/art -these boots weren't made for walking  /are pretty awesome as boots
 : euphoria   re Nate  -i can relate to the anger and turmoil built up inside of him for all these years coming out in vile acts. he is lost and confused. not to mention, the actor is phenomenal. the fact that so many people hate his guts tells a lot about how well his character was played, along with how some came back around to empathizing with him from only one scene.
little Cassie & little Maddie // Bffffffffffff : euphoria   | -The actress they got for young Cassie was perfect. I had to google her to make sure they didnt go back in time and grab young Sydney.   -The casting of little Cassie is UNCANNY . Maddy sorta , but the casting for Cassie was spot on . I wonder how they find such an accurate mini doppelgänger
Who would you add ? : euphoria // -Add Lorde. She can play herself. An awkward girl. Hahahha. Missed her!!
Euphoria’s trans consultant on why the series tells good trans stories - Polygon  |   “Jules is the one who gets herself more than anybody else on this show. I truly believe that the thing that makes cis people love and admire trans people so much is the fact that we understand something really deep about ourselves, and that’s actually really special.     / int  undrst sth deep about self  ~ yes   (maybe not always  but if really ~     //  [not only]  to do w gender  sexuality  ..  Everybody wants to feel seen and everybody wants to know themselves, and that’s what the show is really about.
episode 4 where Jules is a child, and it’s really hard. She’s in a mental institution for self harm. And the thing is, like ... the self-harming isn’t about Jules being trans, except that of course it is. Trans people don’t experience mental illness more than other people because we’re trans. It’s a symptom of what you do to us because we’re trans. With words, that was not said in any way. It was just in this pink football jersey that little Jules was wearing.
Alexa Demie (plays Maddy) makes music! And it's lovely : euphoria
Alexa Demie - Girl Like Me  -villanelle 3 weeks ago alright, euphoria editors put this song up in the show. it would fit perfectly.   -villanelle I agree so much, wow    -karol monroy 2 days ago ur pfp looks like her    -Snake 3 hours ago karol monroy it is her LMAOOOO   /the pic is her. but means 'villanelle' actually is her   for sure?   689 thumbs up so maybe   or maybe just agreeing
Zendaya Coleman, Me, Digital, 2019 : euphoria
* * cmmnt w lyrics // Alexa Demie - Girl Like Me (Audio) - YouTube  |  GOD DAMN, I THINK I NEED A PRESENT MAN GOD DAMN, IM JUST OUT HERE DOIN THE BEST I CAN YOU THINK A GIRL LIKE ME GON BE SINGLE FOR LONG YOU WRONG  ...   YOU THINK A GIRL LIKE ME FUCKIN GIRL LIKE ME GODDESS LIKE ME
cmmnt icon legend the moment // If I could have just a shred of Maddy’s confidence. : euphoria  |  She's got a point. She's an icon, she's a legend and she is the moment.
Jacob Elordi for the New Calvin Klein Commercial 🔥 : euphoria
fvr//  Maddie & Kat have an argument  Euphoria S01 E07 - YouTube / -SkeyHale: i mean honestly there both right. it’s just kats argument is your bf abuses you and your superficial. and maddys argument is she’s a bad friend and became mean for clout. and tbh only maddys assessment is relevant in this situation [148 thumbs up /good bcs y this situation = being a friend. "Kat wh the f is your problem? You're being a bad friend now you were a bad friend to me / I love her delivery spitting out Bad Friend
What is your favorite quote from Euphoria? My personal fav is "It's gonna be 5.75 playboy" : euphoria    |   Ashtray "Unless it's human trafficking, I don't fuck with human trafficking" Kat "I'm not...human trafficking" Fez "Yeah us neither"  / :)
ALL MADDY AND NATE SCENES ON THE DANCE FLOOR S01xE08 [FHD] |EUPHORIA - YouTube
-what TF is “world star” ???? --entertainment website with news and stuff, but they're also famous for posting fight videos. So when people think a fight is about to happen or one already is happening they'll shout "WorldStar!!!" as if to imply said fight could be uploaded to the site.
-wld hv bn the move there hindsight being 20/20 // In Louie S2E8, Christians Against Masturbation ..  [CAM]  --Christians United against Masturbation woulda been the move there hindsight being 20/20
> 129 cmmnts //It’s probably quite obvious to everyone, but these two were the absolute standout performers of the season. These scenes will definitely stick with me : euphoria
Some thoughts on the last scene of the season [long post] : euphoria  |  ..  two ways to understand the last two lines: either one sentence "And they all grow up," or two sentences "And they all... Grow up!" (As in, "You expected a fairy tale ending? Grow up!")
-These kids have always had the internet, over-medication, and overexposure. //int. ok y social media exposure. and medication. ////         My kid brother is 17, he said all of the scenes about how rampant sexualization, addiction, and sexting is in this generation is hella relevant.
--It was almost my exact high school experience. -Saw a podcast where people seriously called the show stupid. I understand it’s exaggerated compared to the average high schooler’s life, but this show is not about the average high schooler. It’s about the most dramatic examples while being relatable about the adolescent experience. - I understand, I’m just saying that some didn’t quite have this kind of experience and this show is shedding light on the more intense ones, sorry if it came off as insensitive!
-I was thinking the exact same thing. Is it that exaggerated? Seems pretty spot-on with a lot of the things I or people I was friends with dealt with. It was refreshing to see it played out on screen realistically, imo  -Everything in this show I relate to. ..Life is crazy and this show captures it bang on for some people.    -I feel like Sam Levinson really did put a lot of his personal experiences into this story especially with the drug use. And it happens to be the drug use that so many people call out as unrealistic. Like if it was so unrealistic, people like Sam Levinson wouldn’t have had to spend some of their teen years in and out rehabs.
If Lorde's Melodrama were a TV show, it would be Euphoria. : euphoria    -Woahhh
-In high school I personally struggled with overcoming a speed addiction that had started in middle school. I switched from pills to drinking four lokos out of a Sonic cup literally at school, during my first period class. My friends parents bought it for me, like most “cool” parents would for a lot of kids. / Four Loko   a can = 4 beers  5 cups coffee  but banned ~ 2010 disc w caffeine
**“situational specificity of tolerance".  greater effect if unfmlr cues // y! // The Four Loko Effect? – Association for Psychological Science |    Phusion Projects itself argued—in defending Four Loco—that the drink was really “comparable to having coffee after a meal with a couple glasses of wine.” And the company has a point. Four Loko should have the same effect as wine and coffee—but it doesn’t, and why not? Why does this particular beverage leave people so inebriated that they require emergency hospitalization?       drugs—including alcohol—have an enhanced effect if taken in connection with unfamiliar cues.    a habitual scotch drinker  ..   takes more scotch to get a buzz. But if that scotch drinker consumes the same amount of alcohol in a novel form—say as a banana daiquiri—then he or she will respond like a less experienced drinker.  // y !
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Timeline of Euphoria Finale. -The only issue /y. here makes sense fr the Oct party  to Nov week depression then Jules away then Rue hosp ..  then not long til Dec winter formal  wh "6 mo" after rehab if start rehab ~ june.   but: //  with this that keeps messing with my head is in the scene in the finale where Jules is helping Rue get ready for the winter formal, she’s talking about the weekend away as if it just happened, like it was the previous weekend, wh doesn’t make a lot of sense.  /y. just occurs to me maybe she was not actually dressing her for the formal there.  just playing around, then did have her wear that (same shirt? tassles?) a few weeks later to formal.  ~      /anyway d n bother me at all in how show played.. just smwh int see if someone bothered does make it reconcile (or hv to conclude writing just loose)
In the carnival Jules goes to the chili stand and shows Rue is true that she slept with Cal, that’s the thing that fucked up Nate.//   okay so i been analyzing nate thing with jules and i’m kinda obsessed i guess : euphoria //   When In the carnival Jules goes to the chili stand and shows Rue is true that she slept with Cal, that’s the thing that fucked up Nate. / oh huh. th wld be int.  //  Okay, so, when Jules leaves the chili stand and Aaron asks who was her, NATE’S FACE, he looked to the ground and I feel like he’s in “pain”. It’s the look of someone who feels betrayed. Why am I saying this? He felt, like I said, betrayed or vulnerable, like he can’t trust her. Like he would never expect her doing something like that. You may think it’s not a big deal. Well, even his dad felt threatened.   ..  When they meet at the lake, I believe he was testing her, if he can trust her or no. That’s why he start saying that he’s not the person she met at the party blah blah, and when she says “can you let go off me” his hand is shaking. When he approach her he say that he fell asleep to her and blah blah, and she says she don’t trust him, and of course he don’t trust her either.  /his hand was shaking ?    To this moment she rejected him three times (when she walked away from him, when she ask him to let go off her and when she said she didn’t trusted him.     //  i am fascinating with nate (because he’s a character that is so difficult to understand) and i refuse to the idea that he’s only a psycho one dimensional character.  /y most int part o show  ambiguity  that texting montage and scene at lake.   /  but wh did to Tyler  too far into unambiguous rt?  wish not.  
44yo married mother of 3 daughters (13, 9, &6) here.  this show also has me wanting to homeschool my kids far up in the mountains and not let them date until they're 30. I, however, would like to take these new psychedelics for a test drive. Sometimes I miss being single in the 90's. Dont tell my family, plz. P.S. Cassie needs to stop crying b4 she dehydrates, and theres fucking glitter EVERYWHERE.
HB 481: Georgia law criminalizes abortion, subjects women to life in prison.  |   * dramatic consequences of granting legal personhood to fetuses. For instance, as Georgia appellate attorney Andrew Fleischman has pointed out, the moment this bill takes effect on Jan. 1, 2020, the state will be illegally holding thousands of citizens in jail without bond.
basil sun water - Ggl |  Growing Basil - Bonnie Plants https://bonnieplants.com/how-to-grow/growing-basil/ Basil needs 6 to 8 hours of sun; in the South and Southwest, it benefits from ... Here's how it works: Plants grow directly in water that is circulated around the roots ...
Aimee Mullins - Ggl / Lilo! / amputation of both of her lower legs   bcs of medical cndtn born w.    first became famous for her athletic accomplishments    now athlete, actress, fashion model //        //via rupert friend (married) (apr19 rupert friend in simple favor v dff! dennis nylon  fr ~ quinn on homeland)
Greenhouse Academy:  benjamin papac looks like    figured out who I think reminding me of - fr 13 Reasons/  Brandon Flynn - Ggl   and cool, a hit!  wattpad/ ppl who look alike
people who look alike  | Wattpad |  Brandon flynn (13RW justin)  + Benjamin papac
Greenhouse Academy ariel mortman  looks like /just got it!/  drew barrymore - Ggl |  twitter -I keep thinking you are drew barrymore.
"I keep thinking you are drew barrymore… "  / y had just tht of and nice to find this cmmnt!  and this pic shows it!!
Season One Discussion - The Twilight Zone (2019) - PRIMETIMER   |  -Amazing. Taking the modern version of the Underground Railroad to try to get to college safely.   -The fact that this is the reality of the parents of children of color in the USA.
in 1998 or at least during some variant of "The Rachel" / :) and re Minute Maid Orange Juice = doing sth so incorrectly // How to Make an Old Fashioned the Old-Fashioned Way | The video in question appears to have been made in 1998 or at least * during some variant of "The Rachel" * // via ggl recap BLL > The Decider BLL recap by Jodi Walker (ok nothing to remark but did click name to go to other BLL recap see wh else) > her site jodi.substack newsletter but menu > archives = public posts ( ~ free letters) // JaNee drink tutorial videos incl "How to Make a Bloody Mary," wh has prominently lineup ingredients a gallon of orange juice that giant jug of Minute Maid symbol re watching JaNee make a cocktail. To see someone do something so incorrectly with so much confidence / :) * Minute Maid orange juice is ex? doing orange juice so incorrectly * haha (but maybe jodi just means th shld not be oj in bloody mary y prob otherwise somewh subtle but I hope maybe she does mean minute maid makes incorrect orange juice, unapologetically // can be inspirational. There are so many things I don’t know how to do, but watching JaNee makes me think, I guess I could just do them?
House of Sand and Fog (film) - Wkp | Mr. Perelman inadvertently exposes the inconsistencies in Mr. Dubus's novel even as he comes very close to overcoming them ... the conflict between Kathy and Behrani arises from a sin so trivial as to be almost comical  /wh is the sin?  ignoring her mail?
nearly flawless execution of a deeply flawed premise. // House of Sand & Fog  FILM REVIEW; Two Flawed People, Divided by a House - The New York Times   2003/12 by AO Scott  /good writ! / nearly flawless execution of a deeply flawed premise. Mr. Perelman inadvertently exposes the inconsistencies in Mr. Dubus's novel even as he comes very close to overcoming them.  |      ..  The film, shot by Roger Deakins, has a somber, elegant look and a style that might best be described as tactful, as if some of the grace and formality of the Behrani household had rubbed off on the director. Continue reading the main story That household, with its polished brass coffee table and overstuffed furniture, is the emotional and dramatic center of the movie. Mr. Kingsley is an actor of formidable reserve, and when he lets it go, you feel as if the world itself has broken open. The deepest pathos comes from the quietest performer, Shohreh Aghdashloo, who speaks very little (in Farsi and broken English) and whose eloquence resides in her weary, lovely face. Next to her poise and delicacy, Ms. Connelly seems a little blank
site > taylorholmes.com / Welcome the Stranger is One Thoroughly Confusing Movie | taylorholmes.com/2018/04/07  have read on this site before  I like how lists optional theories (reads / glosses of film)   // happen to be here via looked up this movie  (wh *also* have read re before  brother sister pool estate girlfriend languid .. but dunno when)~ via ~ dir  justin kelly  via directed I am Michael  was looking that up  (more specifically the documentary Michael Lost & Found, I remember end scene w his wife goes to see his former partner) bcs reminded of by hbo The Believer re lgbt in mormon
read > re movie Frame //  Theories to explain the Mindblowing Movie The Frame  | tayloreholmes
some measure relief  alongside  genuine mourning/ Can ‘Big Little Lies’ Revive Celeste?  /as she was in meeting w mayor/ - The Ringer  |  Can Celeste balance some measure of relief with genuine mourning
complicit as a child in all the "little" lies created by abuse // ok.  unclear to me wh the lies were (s1 / book) // How Big Little Lies subverts the murder mystery
abused person receives the power upon impact //   therapist gorgeously played Robin Weigert // Big Little Lies S2: Andrea Arnold Lost Control to Jean-Marc Vallée | IndieWire |  comments..   -BLL S2 has 4 of my FAVORITE TV scenes of ALL TIME   Meryl Streep’s rapid and slightly gleeful recovery from Nicole Kidman’s face slap. As Nicole’s character had said to her therapist, gorgeously played by Robin Weigert, the wounded player receives the power upon impact.
Dvd Kelley "Let’s just make it about the law!”  // Big Little Lies 2-6  ‘The Bad Mother’ Review  | IndieWire | David E. Kelley throwing his hands up in the air and screaming, “Fuck it! Let’s just make it about the law!”  / haha
 every 'art practice'/  Euphoria's Breakout Star Hunter Schafer on Playing an Unprecedented Character - Vogue     |   I’d like to learn every art practice. But recently, of course, I’ve been transfixed with acting. Ever since I can remember, I drew, and visual arts have been my main way to express myself. I like dancing, although I’ve never done that very seriously. It’s something I’d like to explore more. I almost went to Central Saint Martins for fashion design.   / now break filming, "moment of reformation  ..  find a new rhythm as to how I’m going to externalize my artistic energies.  ..when not being used for Euphoria every day   //  externalize artistic energies
Duke University hospital creates gender clinic  | abc11.com  |  2015   Hunter age 16 here   "Just listen to what you desire on the inside, because it's there, and it's real."  
read re >  lawsuit vs NC restroom bans/  nb Hunter Schafer Sch of Arts HS // Carcaño, et al. v. Cooper, et al | American Civil Liberties Union | lawsuit challenges a sweeping North Carolina law, House Bill 2 , which bans transgender people from accessing restrooms // Hunter Schafer is a 17-year-old young woman and high school junior at University of North Carolina School of the Arts High School in Winston-Salem. Hunter was diagnosed with gender dysphoria in the ninth grade. By her sophomore year she was using the girls’ restroom and feminine pronouns, and that year was elected to the Queens Court. // oh cool UNC School of the Arts HS no wonder talks re 'art practice' likes seeing how she will next 'externalize artistic energies'
[Infographic] Unlike Millennials: 5 Ways Gen Z Differs from Gen Y  || visioncritical.com   // Gen Z is being raised largely by Gen X parents, while Millennials have Baby Boomer parents.  /see that's int   parent-kid  usually one generation between    so ~ every other generation is more linked than consecutive generations
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Gen Alpha is here (mostly) - birthdates start 2010 - the first generation born entirely within the 21st century. (Gen Z stretches back to the mid-1990s.)  // seems make sense for ppl sort of identify w group that are kids of gen their parents identify with.  gen x kids are gen z    millenial kids are gen alpha  ~   but we are young end of gen x  L E espclly S born late  so ~    but still parent influence more Gen X ish I think  
via prvs link Gen Alpha wealthier// What does the future hold for Generation Alpha? | grantthornton.co.uk/insights/what-does-the-future-hold-for-generation-alpha start of Gen Alpha’s era is marked by launch of iPad and Instagram [both in year 2010]. also the year that Facebook overtook Google as the most popular website /oh whoa just as a site in re visits more than ggl !/ in the United States, a stage that few thought ‘faddish’ social media would gain. connected world that Generation Alpha will have lived in for its entire life.. The future these people will create will be built on the changes that we are experiencing today. / Generation Alpha are born to older parents, and will be more likely to be in single-child households /no/ smaller family units. . // // L E S sorta more Gen Z bcs parents more Gen X ish S (and me) on young side but hardly like millenials and of crs D more squarely Gen X // [Millenial] parents believe that being a good parent and having a successful marriage is more important than having a high-paying career / no. (not very.)
"I mean. Yes."   //   You (TV series) "i mean yes" beck - Google Search
YOU (2018) s01e02 Episode Script | SS |  "Like J. D. Salinger?"    "I mean, yes.  But she doesn't like to talk about it...   And she's a sweetheart. Her family's just a little, you know?"   "Whose isn't?" 
* cadence  "I mean. Yes."  been trying to place. = /You on Netflix: Why We Should All Worship Peach Salinger |  “Like J.D. Salinger?” Penn Badgley asks. Beck’s casual, hilarious answer: “I mean, yes.” //    knew was young female char. knew tone. cld not place. til lkg up You anyway bcs came across actress s2 will play Love Quinn (seems good) .  then, ah!  got it. 
 relatn w cats like w aliens// * Kedi  (2017) 1/2 - video dailymotion  // ~ 15 min in woman re v diff life form  relatn w cats like w aliens  open line communicatn  
*Netflix's brand is volume *// 'What/If' Review - Tim Goodman  | Hollywood Reporter | Maybe you've been thinking lately, "If Netflix would only make an ABC soap opera that's dumb and predictable...   /   stars a miscast Renée Zellweger as Anne Montgomery, a venture capitalist ("born of jackals") who has a very familiar proposal for earnest Lisa Donovan (a misused Jane Levy)   ..   Lisa (and, to be emphatically clear, Levy deserves better than this) scoffs at the initial offer   ..   //   problem with What/If is that it's just a bad network series that's on Netflix, /d n explain why Zellwgr & Levy wld agree be in//  a thing that Netflix does more often than you might imagine, mostly because its brand is volume  /ok int brand is volume  yes  like comparing az prime  (also hulu?)  wld tend to say  Netflix has MORE   so if only subscribe to one streaming service...