now, what makes you feel better?

play. wryness. sharp minds. immersion.

what does not make you feel better? poetry. it seems overly available, like there's nothing to it. you can say anything you want, you're saying this. and I do not feel less alone. you seem to think there's something happening here, and I do not.
[there's just so many ways this could go. I could write it every which way. recombinations, various; as fish in the sea. collage. recall. cadence. again, again. as before. repetition, this time with feeling. and recognition of the other times. before, now. every time with feeling. all the times, all the ways. "you can get it as many ways as you want, sweetheart, 'specially from me." so: it's too easy and there's too much of it.]

Mr. Van Zandt are you interested in botany? No.
Mr. Van Zandt are you interested in aviation? No.

I feel better imagining I get to be not interested, always sunny in philadelphia. and rescue me: I like the not pretending.