not an ethic of deserving. / but of luck?

km:

talking about deserving.
and ~ about, what is this called:   . . . obligation?
~ some rich bougie girl done nothing with her life.     =  how is this about deserving?  you didn't deserve this privilege, and so you owe? 

******  better, to talk about:  luck.  *****  what else, how else?

tell me again km...  // you articulate.  the well thought well felt.  most humane and most decent?  toward people, as a public and private.  for me, the compliment from Lloyd, my face opening at the superlative: maro treats ppl w more humanity and decency than anyone ever met. / *treats*  especially when sense gentle need, a welcoming of ~mere~ decency.  kindness, yes. not just seeming.  but maybe only if with someone not mannered.  someone first day at work at a place I am already used to, easy at.  someone quiet, ~ need for that to be okay.  easy, to give.  / and I am not, like km, able to think of 'people' as if really exist.  persons, thou, but not them. (and of course even I-thou, failingly.)   //

tell me again: bcs you have this you shld.. / vs ? luck. 
& Lyn Hejinian experience not as narrative, so political not about ethic of deserving.
and the very next week, eleanor johnson says this? "she and I .just agree'  /agree/ 
my: a political 'the personal is political' I can feel relevant.  not: for me to be disregarded.
relevant to me bcs about ~ not history, not a narrative. 

/ my, also not narrative: also cadences, associations.  as below. ||  cannot that be the poem?  leslie scalapino floats horse as horse floats.  went out in to it intuit.  It's go in horizontal
all the directions. tangents - touching.  I will say more, I will form it, too, it can be ongoing conversation i-thou you do not know in advance what the other person is saying. ~ nor does the person saying. /

my, not about deserving: gifts and needs. /re r bespallof, by author of Death of Virgil, = Hermann Broch.  always have to get to his name this way.  and Virgil is Maro.  [Publius Vergilius Maro (October 15, 70 BC – September 21, 19 BC), usually called Virgil or Vergil /ˈvɜrdʒəl/ in English, was an ancient Roman poet] so this is all my.  //    
if the gift is not to your need?   
or ~ cruelty of melancholy, if not received the gift of loss.  of grief ~fulfilled.  
of grief fulflilled.  /echo is cs lewis grief observed/    then all is surfeit, too much, not the thing.
|| not the droid you're looking for.  come get me yesterday.   are you my mother?
 you can't make a record if you can't make a record .. Well, you can't make a record if you ain't got nothing to say. /shotgun willie . nelson /
guy in army, wandering saying only "is this it? is this it?"  mental illeness discharge - paper handed to.  "this is it!"  = to me?  needing? the one thing?  and here it is the thing that gets you out.  you saying No, you saying I prefer not to -- the thing that says: Okay, so you don't.  

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back to the politics:  what is gained by saying privilege?  rather than luck.
~ talk about structure.  ?